I rent in an apartment complex and I have four Airthings VOC sensors (three in the apartment and one outside).
When I am at home during the day with my wife with the windows closed, our VOCs are low and can hang around 50 ppb so it seems that our unit is not the source of the VOCs. Around 7 pm, VOCs spike in our living room (that is on the north side of unit) when we don't cook in the kitchen and therefore, we air our apartment to return it down to around 50 ppb before going to sleep.
When we go to sleep, the VOCs in our apartment can spike between 2000 ppb to 5500 ppb, while the outside air is at a normal VOC level. Most of the time the VOC spikes higher in our bedroom (south side of the unit) than the living room (the north side of the unit) and we've tested this by keeping our bedroom door closed.
I have two units below me who smoke, one on the south side of the unit and one on the north side of the unit. The one on the south side tends to smoke weed every night and the smell of weed comes up into our bedroom washroom. The south side tenants below me tend to be awake between 10 pm through 6 am to smoke from my experience.
I initially purchased a Blueair Classic 605 and the DualProtection filter, which did nothing to help with the VOCs. So, then I purchased an IQAir GC MultiGas with 12 lbs. (5.4 kg) granular activated carbon & impregnated alumina. When the VOCs spikes, the IQAir unit doesn't seem to reduce the VOC levels, but it has reduced the amount of dry throat and tingling I experience when I wake up in the middle of the night.
I have no clue if these VOCs these are toxic and do not seem to be filtered out by the granular activated carbon & impregnated alumina. What kind of testing is available to determine whether or not I am being exposed to toxic VOCs?

Have you ever …. Wanted to disappear ?
I want to know if anyone has ever wanted to disappear. I have a 6 year old , I’m in my late 20s . I have a decent life , own a house , always looking to better myself and be kind to others even when they’re not to me . Every since I was a child I always day dreamed about running away somewhere. Fast fwd 2023 , those feelings have been coming back intensely. I’ve mentioned in to my child a few times over the last couple of years . They’re usually like yes & sometimes no . My child is close with the father & he’s always been here for us but his anger issues & lifestyle is a problem to me now that I’m older and realizing. I love my family but they’re very toxic, ghetto , and Just don’t understand who I am. I get so happy when I think about the peace I can have . I never really had any friends , none honestly ever . I enjoy being to myself but I’m sure if I knew other great people then I wouldn’t mind a good friend. Idk I have my child and my passport ready and I would really leave if it all came do n to it . My only thing is my grandmother I would worry about her & miss her being I would want to go incognito for months without speaking to anyone. I know if I tell them , they would try to stop me from leaving . Also I don’t want to hurt my family or my child’s father . It all boils down to me wanting to make sure everyone else is happy & that’s why I need to go. I realized over my life I always lived for others , worried about their feelings and happiness and opinions more than they do mine . Am I selfish if I do leave ?? Also what’s some good countries to go to for African American. I don’t want to sound shallow but apart of me feel like America, although it has its flaws , is the safest place for us although I want to leave . I feel spiritually sick with constant intrusive negative thoughts that randomly started happening a few years ago. What’s a good state to be off the grid in ? Thank you all . Please be truthful but respectful . Do I need mental help ? Am I dissociating again?

I want to know if anyone has ever wanted to disappear. I have a 6 year old , I’m in my late 20s . I have a decent life , own a house , always looking to better myself and be kind to others even when they’re not to me . Every since I was a child I always day dreamed about running away somewhere. Fast fwd 2023 , those feelings have been coming back intensely. I’ve mentioned in to my child a few times over the last couple of years . They’re usually like yes & sometimes no . My child is close with the father & he’s always been here for us but his anger issues & lifestyle is a problem to me now that I’m older and realizing. I love my family but they’re very toxic, ghetto , and Just don’t understand who I am. I get so happy when I think about the peace I can have . I never really had any friends , none honestly ever . I enjoy being to myself but I’m sure if I knew other great people then I wouldn’t mind a good friend. Idk I have my child and my passport ready and I would really leave if it all came do n to it . My only thing is my grandmother I would worry about her & miss her being I would want to go incognito for months without speaking to anyone. I know if I tell them , they would try to stop me from leaving . Also I don’t want to hurt my family or my child’s father . It all boils down to me wanting to make sure everyone else is happy & that’s why I need to go. I realized over my life I always lived for others , worried about their feelings and happiness and opinions more than they do mine . Am I selfish if I do leave ?? Also what’s some good countries to go to for African American. I don’t want to sound shallow but apart of me feel like America, although it has its flaws , is the safest place for us although I want to leave . I feel spiritually sick with constant intrusive negative thoughts that randomly started happening a few years ago. What’s a good state to be off the grid in ? Thank you all . Please be truthful but respectful . Do I need mental help ? Am I dissociating again?

Forgive me, I am going to rant and scream into the void while I deal with my guilt and frustration. I don't care if this gets taken down, burned or deleted. I NEED TO RANT AND SHOUT. I know I am a bootyhole for exploding. But her behavior lately made me lash out and I am not proud of it. I just need to get this out and I want her to see just how ducked up she is.
No she will never find this because 1. She hates reddit cuz it's all "Fake". 2. She doesn't like social media drama posts or readings - whatever people who read reddit drammas are called. Redditoperas!
This is the only Reddit thing I like and have ever joint or posted to.
Alright. Deep breath.
I Susan (29F) have a cousin Georgette (27F all names are changed) and I absolutely love her, she is practically my little sister, we grew up together and we literally live in the same area (I can walk to her apartment complex by walking through a shared public park) and we interact with eachother constantly. And she emotionally Dumps on me. CONSTNTLY.
She is the female embodiment of lost potential, entitled and lazy spoilt brat. She is smart but so very dumb and lazy. Now mind you she wasn't always like this. In fact when we were in highschool she was the complete opposite. Hardworking, determined, popular with people. It feels as if she peaked did a 180 and then came crashing down the second she turned 21 and had to deal with the real adult world.
This saturday while we were doing our usual dinner and fun night with our friend group which includes my husband Dansen (30M), my cousins Georgette and her older bother Jerry (32M), and two other dudes Kramer (30M) and Elliot (30M) (6 in total).
We all grew up together, went to the same schools and such and funny enough we all still live in the same neighborhood/area but in different appartment complexes and townhomes. That night we were at my Townhome. The men in our group were watching Seinfeld (this is important) and eating pizza, while Georgette and I got into the conversation of her weekly woes. She was complaining loudly and kept interrupting everytime I tried to speak.
Now mind you I am not a patient person, however with Georgette I usually bottle my opinions on her woes and keep my mouth shut, because 1. I don't want to offend her and 2. She is family. I'm not her mom to be telling her what to do, I know.
Despite the rant coming up, she is family, we've been through thick and thin, and I know I'm an arse for blowing up at her and ranting about her life. But something about this week, the stress, her attitude and I-don't-know-what-else-made-me-blow-up. Maybe I was overstimulated because it was loud and I was tired, maybe I just needed to unload on something, I don't know but this is what happened.
In the middle of Goergette complaining about how people look down on her, "the poor nerd" and "The little guy", her parents, her relationships, I snapped. It felt like a tea kettle building up steam until it shouts. So of course I shouted "Will you just Shut up?! I don't want to hear you complaining about your life right now, literally all the problems in your life are your own damn fault! You are just an incompetent loser of a child who thinks the world owes her something because "reasons!" First of all - "
I basically pointed out, complaint by complaint in a rant on how everything is her own fault. Forgive the paragraph of word vomit. The points here are her complaints and my thoughts on the matter, the things in parenthesis are things that I shouted in the middle of my ranting. Yes it was recorded. No I'm not sharing. I'm just writing what I said and screaming into a void.

1. She is sad and lonely because she's single after a 2 year relationship and she misses her ex, terribly. (First of all, that is YOUR fault. GIRL you literally broke up with your boyfriend because YOU, yes, YOU wanted to save face. Becase YOU are so insecure you thought his own sister was a random girl who was trying to "steal" him away from you. That "Oh he likes that ugly girl who is prettier than me, look at the way he hugs her" and "who does he think he is" and that he "looks down on me cuz I'm short and brown". He doesn't by the way, he was willing to stay with you despite all your faults, he genuinly liked you and you dumped him because you cant stand being wrong, but noooooo "he's so booooring. commitment is so boooring, i can't do anything wah wah. You kept being weird with your sister!" and now all of a sudden 2 weeks after breaking up, now that hes gone he's suuuuddenly the "lOvE oF mY LiFe" and the "oNe tHaT gOt aWay! I mEssEd Up sO bAd!! WAH!" baby girl, whose fault is that? You left him! That was your own Damn Fault!! Who the hell wants to date a girl let alone be in a relationship with someone that dumb?)
2. How no men will date her and how all men are trash. ( No one wants you because you are trash! Your attitude is trash! Your personality is trash! Men can't handle me because "I'm a 10", girl you aint a 10. You are an arrogant insecure egotistical maniac who thinks shes a 10 when in reality you're a 3 at best - You literally complain that no one wants you when you literally lie and shoot yourself in the foot. "It's because I'm a nerd!" No, it's because you are an ass, "If they don't like me at my best" is bull crap. They should love me for me, is bull crap, you are all the reasons why no one wants you and you always give way less than the other persons best. You are never at your best, your best is the worst possible thing. You complain to your partner "I'm extroverted I need attention and sunlight" but then when they want to take you out you whine that you wanna stay home and order take out. What the hell is your idea of a good time? Eating nachos in your underwear while watching Bridgerton? Whining about how other people are fake for posting their vacations on facebook? You want people to see that you are "successful" online but then bitch when people know that you are a actually a shut in with bad money. You tell people you are a teacher with a princeton diploma to impress them and then whenthat bites you in the ass, you are too embarrased to admit you are an in debt college dr out part time worker influencer wannabe who still lives with her Mommy and Daddy. So then you start blame to make yourself feel better. You feel entitled to everything because you blame everything. Blame, blame, blame. I can start a whole communist party parade with all the red flags you have. It's not like your the problem, it's not like you make your own problems, you are absolutely perfect and fine just the way you are! The world owes you something because you are Georgette Middlename NolastName. The perfect princess! You're not. You're just a spoilt brat who gets a scott free ride because your parents are too afraid to admit they are failures who didn't raise you right. You don't deserve the amount of praise people give you.)
3. How she can't lose weight even though she is "trying". No she is not trying, she weighs 375lbs and is gaining more weight. (Whos god damn fault is thaAAAAAAAAAT?? Not that there is anything wrong with being plus sized or overweight - Shit who am I to talk, I'm plus sized. Although my BMI - Which has been proven to be BS by the way says I'm "obese" I still make an effort to be healthy! I dont care if people think I'm fat, I like my size and my body. So does my husband. At least I'm not pretending to lose weight and be healthy while shoving a chocolate cake shake in my mouth! There is a huge difference between being body positive or health concious vs someone constantly saying "I'm going to acheive this goal" without actually taking any steps to acheive that goal and making the situation worse. It's like an alcoholic saying "I'm trying to quit drinking" while they are downing tequila shots. No - Girl you aint trying. Not even close. You've been paying for an LA Fitness gym membership for over a year and you never go because you are too tired, you want to play games or do a make up totorial that you never going to post. Working out makes you sweaty and uncomfortable and doesn't " actually help you lose weight, it's all in the food". COME ON. You don't even try to eat healthy because healthy food tastes yucky and you only like good tasting things like Burgerking. Really? You pay for a food subcription that you dont eat because it's too salty, too spicy or it doesn't taste good and then buy fastfood and then complain that you don't lose weight and how your stomach hurts? GEE I wonder WHY?! YOu have Gastrointeritis and you're eating BURGERKING???)
4. How she complains she has a dead end job and how she almost got fired for sleeping at her desk and how her boss is a jerk for daring to ask her to do her job ( Well DUH, IT'S YOUR JOB! How have you not been fired yet? Your Boss caught you sleeping on the JOB! It's bad enough you dont even do it well, you say it's dead end because you are too lazy to do anything else or put in an effort. You didn't even get that job yourself dude, I got you that job as a favor to your Mom. "Oh Susie, please get a spot at your job she needs it!" Sheesh! You didn't even have to do an interview, how does that even work? It's insane that I moved on and you've been doing the same Job stupid job for 5 freaking years. You went to college and flunked out because "I want to be an entrepreneur influencer" or whatever but havent done anything productive in ALL that time. You work as a Printer and mailroom lady at a public school PART TIME. It is NOT that hard! you literally spend hours on your phone and watch netflix all day! YOU GET PAID TO SIT ON YOUR BUTT! AND YOU'RE COMPLAINING?! What is wrong with you? You literally get the summer off and you call in sick for the stupidest reasons! You literally have time to get platnum on overwatch but cant take classes or get a certificate to get a better job because it's too hard, you're tire and you have no time? Really? Maybe if you didn't play Leage until 3 in the god damn morning you wouldn't be so tired all day and appreciate how spoiled, privalaged and ungreatful you are! I would kill to have the amount of support and time you have!).
5. How she doesn't have money. ( YOU complain that you dont have the money to do any fun stuff, fix your car and pay "rent" which you never pay because NEWSFLASH you live with your mom. BUT you spend 300 dollars to do your NAILS and you're broke? You are constantly buying 50 dollar "brand name " make up and clothes for your failing influencer streams and posts, "I'm soooooo broke!!!" You buy 20 dollar character skins on Overwatch for characters you dont even play. You spend 250 a week on take out and because even though you know how to cook and pay for a food subcription, all that food tastes yucky or you don't want to use your moms kitchen cuz she complains when you dont clean up. And you have the audacity to complain? To ask me to buy you stuff and spot you? Like seriously? Aren't you "saving" to move out? You contstantly tell us and brag about how you're moving out and going to be a successful small business owner, but then you spend a bajillion on stupid shit. I know you're getting that money from somewhere and you are in debt. But hot cock on a rock, you are financially and literally irresponsible and you can't see it because either you are an idiot or you know it and think it will just go away. It wont.)
6. How the button on her shorts broke and how dumb it is that she spent so much money on a "BRAND" name item only for the button to break because it is cheaply made. (BRUH YOU BOUGHT IT OFF SHEIN!!! That crap aint Chanel! That stuff isn't Gucci or some other stupid bougee brand! No wonder it sucks and comes apart after two washes! The only reason you bought it is because some rando told you to buy it on TikTok and "iT wAs A DeAl!!" You get that crap a size too small and then are surprised when the seams rip! Gee! I wonder why miss "I'm working out!" )
7. How her Instagram/TikTok and Twitch have barely any views and her Influencer life style is not working out. (BRUH you don't post anything of value, it's a saturated market and when you do post, you don't make an effort to edit or even post or stream at a time that people are willing to watch you. you play obscure games that no one knows about or games that are overplayed by better streamers and influencers. You do make up tutorials, without actually knowing or researching explaining what you are doing or putting on your face. No wonder no one watches you. You obviously arent even trying. You are not going to go viral or make it up there if you are not willing to actually try to do something of value. People are not going to just watch you because you are a girl and have tits.)
8. Her parents being unsupportive. (Your Parents aren't supportive? HOW? you're 27 and living with your parents. Those two idiots love the absolute shit out of you and you don't even know it. You get free housing. They paid for your college and they paid for your car. You don't even pay utilities. They pay for your phone. How are they not supporting you? They even brag about how "our princess is an influencer" and act so proud when you can't keep any followers, keep a man, pass a class or get a decent job. How are they not supporting you?)
9. How she is the victim in life and she is so unlucky. This was the last complaint that made me snap and start this whole tirade. ( You are all the things that are wrong with you and you cause all the problems in your life. You are the girl who peaked in highschool and just thought the rest of the world would cater to you. I don't know how, but your ass is going to be handed to you one day and I'm not going to be there to help you. You have no one to blame but yourself. You are extremely lucky and you don't even know it. I'm sorry for yelling at you and saying all this shit but I am so tired of listening to you complain and act as if nothing in your life has ever been your fault. You are the problem. And I don't think I can handle being around you right now.)

Now before I continue, let me just say. I have nothing against Jason Alexander. Hes a great actor who is severely underrated but I absolutely hate his character from that show. From the whining to the tantrums and relationship problems. I despise George Constanza.
And Georgette is exactly like him and HOLY ITALIAN CANOLI. I can only take so much. In mannerisms, attitude, and sircumstance. She is the female George. Maybe that's why I blew up like that. Who knows. Anyway....
Then it happened.
This entire ordeal felt like watching a car crash -you know how everything will end up, but you cant do anything but watch as the disaster happens and either cringe or look in awe.
At the end of my rant, when the room is quiet and all you can hear is the TV and the sitcom laughter, my Cousin, Georgettes older brother Jerry -bless his stupid heart- suddenly started laughing and said that I was right about it all, Georgette created her own problems and always had an excuse FOR EVERYTHING, of course, we all start arguing. She gives more excuses. We argue some more. There is name calling. And we start taking sides, in the middle of our arguing Georgette screams, Loud and says... "NO NO! Its not my fault! I'm the victem here!! You're just being mean!! ... I'm getting upset!! AHHH!!!" while flailing her arms and stomping her feet like a toddler. And of course there was a pause.
In that second the mentioned character from the show, which was still playing on the TV, shouted loudly "George is getting upset!! AHHHHH!!!" que the bass playing.
Everyone lost it.
The boys of course all started laughing, I started laughing. Georgette not amused starts shouting how it's not funny. "I'm the victem here!" Starts crying and tells us all to "Go to hell." Then runs out the door, fumbles, trips, gets up and shuffles way towards the park and to her Parents apartment gesticulating and yelling the entire way.
I feel bad, but at the same time it feels good to have let all that out.
Even now I feel releif writing this out. I don't care. I'm so done with this life.
Her mom, Estelle, of couse called me and I let everything out on her too - In the end she got quiet and just hung up.
I feel like Quagmire at the end of his "why I don't like you Brian" speech. I said my peace. I know I'm an ass and I think I'm ok with not dealing with my cousin any more.
I don't think I've even cared about her.
I don't think I even want to see her right now. Or ever.
I love her. But do I actually love her or is it because she's always been here and shes family? Have I always been carrying this? I don't know. Maybe I want people to know how I really feel and am hoping this reaches her in some way as a cathartic fuck you. I don't know. I'll talk to a therapist about that on Monday.
Babydoll, if you see this. Get your Shit Together. I'm done. I don't regret doing this. I hope you get better and succeed. I really do. But I Love you and I hate you. I hate that you do nothing to improve yourself and I hate that I'm your Emotional Support Animal. I'm not responsible for you. And it's not my fault that you feel shitty. We may be family, but that doesn't give you the right to make me feel shitty and for your to invide my home with your constant complaining. I'm not a sith. I can't live with negativity and darkness for all my life. You need to be better. And I hope one day we both can be better. But for now. Good Bye.
I'm Done.
If you've made it this far or if this still exists by the time anyone gets to this paragraph, congratulations for letting me scream into the reddit void for 300 hours.
Peace.

Hello
I have been on HRT for 3 years. I am after SRS surgery and after tracheal surgery and after vocal cord surgery.
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I think there are people here who could help me. In other groups, the pause is cloudy... I am 30 years old.
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So how do you get started.
My hormonal journey began on 20/05/2020, 27 years old. It was a great euphoria.
Please read even and not just the beginning...
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My medication for the first month - Cypro 25mg a day and an Estradiol tablet 2mg a day.
After a month, the dose was increased to - Cypro 50mg and 2x2mg Estradiol. For a full 5 months.
My body was already very feminine before HRT, also my face 70 feminine/30 masculine. Before HRT my testosterone was only 7nmol/l. And my estradiol none - 0.0055684252 pmol/l.
My weight was 80kg. My body was improving, breast growth, fat redistribution, lots of things. I was really happy but I had big mood swings, the only problem. Everything worked great.
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My values
Estradiol - 130 pmol/l
Testosterone - 0.59 nmol/l
SHBG - 67.7 nmol/l
TSH - 1.725 mIU/l
Free testosterone - 1%
FSH - 0.7 IU/l
LH - 0.0 IU/l
Greater Prolactin - 669.8 mIU/l
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My Estradiol low. I was given Oestrogel. 2 months after.
Estradiol - 240 pmol/l
Testosterone - 0.78 nmol/l
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My levels are higher yet still low but my moods have improved.
But at that time it was not enough for me, you probably all know that :)
Sometimes a little is better than a lot...
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OK :) I received an injection - Estradiol valerate
My setup - Cypro 50mg and Valerate 5mg once every 8 days.
The beginning was a strange, strange transition. But my feminization continued. My moods disappeared. It was better but not for long. This journey lasted 12 months.
After 8 months my breasts shrunk from size B to size A. It wasn't very important to me. My jaw widened but not much and my cheekbones got bigger.
Another part has arrived - SRS. My surgery went well apart from a minor infection.
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Then all hell broke loose. Mainly physical problems and then also psychological ones.
I didn't take any hormones for a week before the surgery and I didn't take any after the surgery either. No anti-androgens and hormones until a month after the operation because I couldn't sit and dose the injection. My spine wasn't working.
But even though I was taking Valerate, my condition only worsened over time.
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After 7 months I found another doctor who took away my injections.
There was a lot of masculinization, but there was still time.
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My values - Estradiol 530 pmol/l and Testosterone 1.37 nmol/l
My medications - Spironolactone 25mg daily, Estradiol tablets 2x2mg and Progesterone 100mg daily
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My condition was improving. The face did not but the breasts grew. This condition lasted for 2 months. Then came the great aggravation.
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Put back in - Cypro 25mg and Estradiol Valerate. I don't have any values from these exams. He was a doctor and half DIY.
Yes everything went well again but only for one month. The end again.
Next was - Cypro 25mg, tablets 2x2mg and Oestrogel
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4 months - values
High creatinine - 77 umol/l
Large prolactin - 809 mIU/l
Little AST - 0.13 ucat/l
Little ALP - 0.41 ucat/l
Borderline small TSH - 1.077 mIU/l
Estradiol - 583 pmol/l
Progesterone 2 nmol/l
DHEAS - 8.67 umol/l
Testosterone - 0.52 nmol/l
SHBG - 68.7 nmol/l
Free testosterone - 0.76%
Cortisol - 324 nmol/l
FSH - 0.3 IU/l
LH - 0.1 IU/l
ACTH - 4.63 pmol/l
DHT 0.20 nmol/l
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All other values are normal. All measured in two days.
I will describe my current situation.
My face - used to have a narrow jaw, now has a wide jaw like a square... Cheekbones massive, chin unchanged, enlarged huge nose (big holes), used to have big lips, now small lips, used to have no forehead, now has large eye ridges.
My hands are big and my fingers are thick, my feet are wide (size 43, now 46). My hips are half gone, butt gone, cellulite, my ankles and calves sore and big wide, my ribcage maybe bigger?.
I will remind you that my weight is still the same 80-90kg, no radical weight loss or fattening.
Half of my hair has fallen out, very thin and damaged, growing very slowly. Previously shoulder-length hair, now ear-length for 7 months?
My nails break a lot. Big pubic hair. Acne. Thick skin.
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It's not all like a princess in a fairy tale realm.
Breast? None, flat chested like an airport.
Now my biggest problem. Profuse sweating, night and day, over and over again. At home in peace, outside. And stink like a man in fitness.
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I do not know where the problem is. Perhaps acquired resistance to Estradiol? How can I find out? I tried to write it the best and my perfect hormone levels.
Now I am only on Oestrogel and Cypro. No Valerate, no pills, no progesterone. It's still the same and still worse.
The doctor doesn't help. can you help me Or am I doomed to die?
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Thank you

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Emily Is Away <3	Offer
Encased	Offer
Epic Chef	Offer
Five Dates	Offer
Founders' Fortune	Offer
Golf Gang	Offer
Grow: Song of the Evertree	Offer
Industria	Offer
Monster Crown	Offer
Monster Prom 2: Monster Camp	Offer
Police Stories	Offer
Railroad Corporation	Offer
Red Solstice 2: Survivors	Offer
Revita	Offer
Rogue Lords	Offer
ScourgeBringer	Offer
Siege Survival: Gloria Victis	Offer
Spiritfarer: Farewell Edition	Offer
Super Magbot	Offer
The Invisible Hand	Offer
The Serpent Rogue	Offer
Windjammers 2	Offer

Fanatical Games

Game	Price (USD)
A Blind Legend	Offer
American Fugitive (x2)	Offer
Automachef	Offer
Chenso Club	Offer
Demon Pit	Offer
Distrust	Offer
Dub Dash	Offer
Dustforce DX	Offer
Hue	Offer
Iron Fisticle	Offer
Manual Samuel	Offer
Pixel Heroes: Byte & Magic	Offer
Plan B from Outer Space: A Bavarian Odyssey	Offer
Race.a.bit	Offer
Rebel Galaxy Outlaw	Offer
Riptide GP2	Offer
Smoke and Sacrifice	Offer
SoulCraft	Offer
Syberia	Offer
Terrain of Magical Expertise	Offer
The Inner World	Offer
War Solution - Casual Math Game	Offer
When Ski Lifts Go Wrong (x2)	Offer

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Please comment your offer before PMing me.
I prefer all negotiations to happen within the comments of this post.
My region: U.S.
Any key below will be sent via PM in revealed form.
I am willing to bundle all games to move on and sell (please offer if interested in all).
Thanks for stopping by!

May Multiplayer Madness Game Bundle

Game	Price (USD)
Midnight Ghost Hunt	Offer
PULSAR: The Lost Colony	Offer

Conquer COVID-19 Bundle

Game	Price (USD)
Alien Spidy	Offer
Broken Age	Offer
DUCATI - 90th Anniversary	Offer
Europa Universalis IV	Offer
HIVESWAP: Act 1	Offer
Hacknet	Offer
Magicka	Offer
PAC-MAN™ CHAMPIONSHIP EDITION 2	Offer
Party Hard	Offer
Psychonauts	Offer
Rebuild 3: Gangs of Deadsville	Offer
Stealth 2: A Game of Clones	Offer
Super Hexagon	Offer
This is the Police	Offer
VVVVVV	Offer
Worms Revolution	Offer

Türkiye-Syria Earthquake Relief Bundle

Game	Price (USD)
112 Operator	Offer
911 Operator	Offer
Agent in Depth	Offer
Alchemist’s Castle	Offer
The Amazing American Circus	Offer
Arcade Spirits	Offer
Armello	Offer
Backbone	Offer
Calico	Offer
Cosmic Express	Offer
Death Squared	Offer
Detached: Non-VR Edition	Offer
Doughlings: Arcade	Offer
Doughlings: Invasion	Offer
Firegirl: Hack ‘n Splash Rescue DX	Offer
Flynn: Son of Crimson	Offer
Frick, Inc	Offer
Guilty Gear X2 #Reload	Offer
Guns & Fishes	Offer
Hack ‘n’ Slash	Offer
Harmony’s Odyssey	Offer
Hyper Gunsport	Offer
The Inner World	Offer
Izmir: An Independence Simulator	Offer
Into the Pit	Offer
Lighthouse Keeper	Offer
Lust from Beyond - M Edition	Offer
Meow Express	Offer
MirrorMoon EP	Offer
Monaco	Offer
Mount & Blade: Warband	Offer
Non-Stop Raiders	Offer
Orbital Racer	Offer
Planet TD	Offer
Pill Baby	Offer
Project Chemistry	Offer
Pixross	Offer
Quadrata	Offer
Remnants of Naezith	Offer
Rym 9000	Offer
Saga Volume 1-10	Offer
Soulblight	Offer
Soulflow	Offer
Soul Searching	Offer
Space Crew: Legendary Edition	Offer
Stacking	Offer
Starfinder Core Rulebook	Offer
Starfinder: Junker’s Delight	Offer
Stikir	Offer
Stygian: Reign of the Old Ones	Offer
Sunlight	Offer
Symmetry	Offer
System Shock Enhanced Edition	Offer
System Shock 2	Offer
Ticket to Ride	Offer
Worms Rumble	Offer
XEL	Offer
XCOM 2	Offer
X-Morph: Defense Complete Pack	Offer
Zombie Driver HD Complete Edition	Offer

Humble Choice Games

Game	Price (USD)
Bendy and the Dark Revival	Offer
Behind the Frame: The Finest Scenery	Offer
Builder Simulator	Offer
Crown Trick (x2)	Offer
Demon Turf	Offer
Emily Is Away <3	Offer
Encased	Offer
Epic Chef	Offer
Five Dates	Offer
Founders' Fortune	Offer
Golf Gang	Offer
Grow: Song of the Evertree	Offer
Industria	Offer
Monster Crown	Offer
Monster Prom 2: Monster Camp	Offer
Police Stories	Offer
Railroad Corporation	Offer
Red Solstice 2: Survivors	Offer
Revita	Offer
Rogue Lords	Offer
ScourgeBringer	Offer
Siege Survival: Gloria Victis	Offer
Spiritfarer: Farewell Edition	Offer
Super Magbot	Offer
The Invisible Hand	Offer
The Serpent Rogue	Offer
Windjammers 2	Offer

Fanatical Games

Game	Price (USD)
A Blind Legend	Offer
American Fugitive (x2)	Offer
Automachef	Offer
Chenso Club	Offer
Demon Pit	Offer
Distrust	Offer
Dub Dash	Offer
Dustforce DX	Offer
Hue	Offer
Iron Fisticle	Offer
Manual Samuel	Offer
Pixel Heroes: Byte & Magic	Offer
Plan B from Outer Space: A Bavarian Odyssey	Offer
Race.a.bit	Offer
Rebel Galaxy Outlaw	Offer
Riptide GP2	Offer
Smoke and Sacrifice	Offer
SoulCraft	Offer
Syberia	Offer
Terrain of Magical Expertise	Offer
The Inner World	Offer
War Solution - Casual Math Game	Offer
When Ski Lifts Go Wrong (x2)	Offer

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I'm sure everyone here already knows this, but you have a wonderful city! I visited twice (2009 & 2014) and have missed it dearly ever since. Both times I stayed for about a month in the same apartment just a few blocks from the Rathausplatz. As a history teacher with a love of German history and culture, my visits were a dream come true. I grew up in poverty here in the USA and never in my wildest dreams thought I'd be able to visit Europe. It just so happened that my father-in-law was needed for work there at several points in his career, allowing my (now) wife and I to come and visit. We stayed in Augsburg for about 3 weeks and then traveled into Austria, Switzerland, and Italy for a week or two each time. We even ventured up to Berlin for a week. That was, of course, very different but extremely cool in its own right! It could just be where I'm located (midwest), but we don't have the same outdoowalking culture here. It was so relaxing each day to walk a few blocks on cobblestone streets, and enjoy the public transportation, bicycles, outdoor cafes, and the sights, smells, and sounds of the city. I recognize that the grass always seems greener on the other side, but I wanted to make this post and let all of you know that I fell in love with your city and that it holds a special place in my heart. The people were tremendously kind and, as a visitor, I always felt welcome. I was a little bummed that most everyone I engaged with spoke English because I so badly wanted to practice speaking German. That said, I mostly wanted to say that I miss Augsburg and can't wait to visit in the (hopefully) near future!

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Item	Details	Price
Maja V1 Polycarbonate with Custom Patinaed Brass	Great condition. Comes with hotswap pcb, brass plate (this is also patinaed), original foams, extra screws. This is polycarbonate which is a soft material so there are some inevitable small scratches but it is not very noticeable.	$525 OBO Shipped
Rama M60-A Moon	Great condition, includes extra feet, pcb is hotswap	$300 OBO Shipped
Owlab Spring Black Chroma	Great condition, comes with FR4 plate and new unused solder pcb. Also comes with extra case foam, extra feet, carrying case and microfiber cloth. Also comes with a keylabs crucible rainbow pvd aluminum cherry esc artisan.	$510 OBO Shipped
Gmk Redacted Base + Eyes Only	Excellent condition no shine. It does not come in the plastic trays shown in the photos. I threw out the original potato tray but still have the sleeve, it will probably be shipped in a new potato tray.	$125 Shipped
Gmk Redacted Aluminum Rama	Excellent condition	$85 Shipped
	Bundle GMK Redacted kits and Rama	$200 Shipped
Project Affogato Aluminum & Wood/Carbon Fiber Wrist Rest	Brand new, never used. Includes both the forged carbon fiber and wood inserts. The wood has not been treated with the included sandpaper or varnish. More information is available here.	Trade with the items I have listed below like the Nemo Decommission 1, Inventory Hide, M6-C milkshake
Wonka Brass Enter (PVD Bronze)	Custom Brass cherry enter (PVD coated in Bronze colorway) laser engraved with the Wonka logo. Note that there are some micro scratches and there is a small blemish under the W. Would go well with gmk chocolatier for example.	$105 OBO Shipped
Monokei 65% Titan Grey Polycarbonate Wrist Rest	Has some micro scratches which is inevitable with polycarbonate, see images. This color is like a dark purplish black. This was originally for the Monokei Hiro but it also pairs well with some other 65% keyboards such as the mode 65.	$69 Shipped
Rama Thermal Red Artisan	Brand new, excellent condition	$105 OBO Shipped
Rama Beta Artisan	Brand new, excellent condition	$60 OBO Shipped
Voice Mini Passion	Brand new, never used, includes all original accessories	$70 OBO Shipped
Gmk Minimal 2 Rama Square, Circle, and Triangle	Excellent condition	$130 OBO for all 3 shipped, willing to split it up too
Keyreative ABS Cherry Profile Blank Keycap Set Hot Pink	One escape row 1u keycap has a manufacturing defect on the back (see photo). More info here.	$12 OBO Shipped
Mozi Elos Gold Flakes Arrow(R4) + Elos Silver Flakes Arrow(R4)	Brand new, unmounted	$10 Shipped for both
Rama DSA XO Blue and Red Keycaps + Rama DSA XO White on Black Keycaps + Rama GRID keycaps (5 green transparent and 2 red transparent)	DSA keycaps are double shot ABS	$10 OBO Shipped
Rutomoda TRIFL Keycaps	There are 4 different sets of 8 1u keycaps (grey, black, grey hills, black hills). Brand new never used, more details can be found here	$25 OBO shipped for 1 set of 8 1u keycap (can mix half hills and half regular)

All items include free shipping to US.

International shipping available at an additional cost
Feel free to dm with any questions and offers (such as discounts for bundles or OBO, everything is OBO).
Must have confirmed trades for items over $100.
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Want to buy/trade for:

• White Rama M6-C (Milkshake or Milk)
• Rama Nemo Decommission 1
• Rama Inventory Hide (Dark Brown)
• Lilac, Maroon, Gold Mirror Mode65 Backpiece
• Gmk Hanok Base
• Hibi november fog, olive 1u, galaxy 1u
• Mode65 Copper Plate, Backpiece and Bottom
• Latrialum cappuccino esc

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Item	Sale Price	MSRP	Savings
Age Of Empires Iv Anniversary Edition (pc) - Digital Download	$34.99	$49.99	$15.00
Anno 1800 Console Edition (ps5)	$39.99	$49.99	$10.00
Arcade1up Midway Legacy Mortal Kombat 30th Anniversary Edition Arcade Machine With Riser	$599.99	$649.99	$50.00
Arcade1up Mortal Kombat Collectorcade Arcade Machine	$89.99	$119.99	$30.00
Arcade1up Mortal Kombat Countercade Arcade Machine	$199.99	$249.99	$50.00
Arcade1up Nfl Blitz Arcade Machine	$599.99	$799.99	$200.00
Arcade1up Pac-man Collectorcade Arcade Machine	$89.99	$119.99	$30.00
Arcade1up Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Countercade Arcade Machine	$199.99	$249.99	$50.00
Assassin's Creed: The Ezio Collection (switch)	$29.99	$49.99	$20.00
Assassin's Creed Valhalla (ps4)	$29.99	$49.99	$20.00
Assassin's Creed: Valhalla (ps5)	$29.99	$49.99	$20.00
Assassin's Creed Valhalla (xbox One / Xbox Series X)	$29.99	$49.99	$20.00
Astro Gaming A40 Tr Gaming Headset For Ps4 - Black	$159.99	$179.99	$20.00
Astro Gaming A40 Tr Gaming Headset For Xbox One - Black	$159.99	$179.99	$20.00
Audio Technica Ath-gdl3 Gaming Headset - White	$159.98	$179.99	$20.01
Audio Technica Ath-gl3 Gaming Headset - Black	$129.99	$149.99	$20.00
Audio Technica Ath-gl3 Gaming Headset - White	$129.99	$136.99	$7.00
Bloodborne (ps4)	$9.99	$19.99	$10.00
Crisis Core: Final Fantasy Vii Reunion (ps5)	$49.99	$64.99	$15.00
Crisis Core: Final Fantasy Vii Reunion (ps4)	$49.99	$64.99	$15.00
Crisis Core: Final Fantasy Vii Reunion (switch)	$49.99	$64.99	$15.00
Days Gone (ps4)	$29.99	$49.99	$20.00
Deathloop (ps5)	$24.99	$79.99	$55.00
Deathloop (xbox Series X)	$24.99	$79.95	$54.96
Far Cry 6 (ps4)	$29.99	$49.99	$20.00
Far Cry 6 (ps5)	$29.99	$49.99	$20.00
Far Cry 6 (xbox Series X / Xbox One)	$29.99	$49.99	$20.00
Forspoken (ps5)	$59.99	$89.99	$30.00
Forza Horizon 5 Deluxe Edition (xbox Series X/S / Xbox One / Windows ) - Digital Download	$49.99	$99.99	$50.00
Forza Horizon 5: Premium Add-ons Bundle (xbox Series X/S / Xbox One / Windows) - Digital Download	$29.99	$59.99	$30.00
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Forza Horizon 4 (xbox One)	$24.97	$69.97	$45.00
Forza Horizon 4 (xbox One) - Digital Download	$24.99	$79.99	$55.00
Forza Horizon 5 (xbox Series X/S / Xbox One / Windows ) - Digital Download	$39.99	$79.99	$40.00
Forza Horizon 5 (xbox Series X / Xbox One)	$39.99	$79.99	$40.00
Ghost Of Tsushima Director's Cut (ps5)	$39.99	$89.99	$50.00
Ghostwire: Tokyo (ps5)	$24.99	$79.99	$55.00
God Of War Iii Remastered (ps4)	$9.99	$19.99	$10.00
God Of War (ps4)	$9.99	$19.99	$10.00
God Of War Ragnarok (ps5)	$64.99	$89.99	$25.00
God Of War Ragnarok (ps4)	$54.99	$79.99	$25.00
Grand Theft Auto: The Trilogy - The Definitive Edition (xbox Series X / Xbox One)	$39.99	$79.99	$40.00
Gran Turismo 7 (ps4)	$39.99	$79.99	$40.00
Gran Turismo 7 (ps5)	$49.99	$89.99	$40.00
Gran Turismo Sport (ps4)	$9.99	$19.99	$10.00
Halo Infinite (xbox Series X/S / Xbox One / Windows) - Digital Download	$39.99	$79.99	$40.00
Halo Infinite (xbox Series X / Xbox One)	$19.99	$79.99	$60.00
Harvestella (switch)	$49.99	$79.99	$30.00
Horizon Forbidden West Launch Edition (ps4)	$39.99	$79.99	$40.00
Horizon Forbidden West (ps5)	$49.99	$89.99	$40.00
Hyperx Cloud Alpha Over-ear Gaming Headset - Black	$109.98	$119.99	$10.01
Hyperx Cloud Stinger 2 Core Gaming Headset For Ps5/ps4 - Black	$39.98	$49.99	$10.01
Hyperx Cloud Stinger Core Wireless Gaming Headset For Ps5/ps4 - White	$84.99	$99.99	$15.00
Hyperx Cloudx Stinger 2 Core Gaming Headset For Xbox Series X/S / Xbox One - Black	$44.99	$49.99	$5.00
Hyperx Cloudx Stinger 2 Core Gaming Headset For Xbox Series X/S / Xbox One - White	$44.98	$49.99	$5.01
Insignia Carrying Case & Protection Kit For Switch Lite - Black - Only At Best Buy	$19.99	$24.99	$5.00
Insignia Carrying/protective Case For Meta - Only At Best Buy	$29.99	$39.99	$10.00
Insignia Cleaning Kit For Meta	$19.99	$29.99	$10.00
Insignia Glass Screen Protector For Switch - 2 Pack - Only At Best Buy	$9.99	$14.99	$5.00
Insignia Go Carrying Case For Switch Lite - Black - Only At Best Buy	$14.99	$19.99	$5.00
Insignia 5m (16.4 Ft.) Usb Type-c Cable For Meta Quest Vr Headsets - Only At Best Buy	$59.99	$79.99	$20.00
Insignia Nintendo Switch Steering Wheel - 2 Pack - Blue/red - Only At Best Buy	$12.99	$16.99	$4.00
Just Dance 2023 (ps5)	$39.99	$49.99	$10.00
Just Dance 2023 (switch)	$39.99	$49.99	$10.00
Just Dance 2023 (xbox Series X)	$39.99	$79.99	$40.00
Kontrolfreek Fps Freek Galaxy 4-prong Thumbsticks For Ps4 & Ps5	$19.99	$24.99	$5.00
Kontrolfreek Fps Freek Galaxy 4-prong Thumbsticks For Xbox One & Xbox Series X/S	$19.99	$24.99	$5.00
Kontrolfreek Fps Freek Inferno 4-prong Thumbsticks For Ps4 & Ps5	$19.99	$24.99	$5.00
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Littlebigplanet 3 (ps4)	$9.99	$19.99	$10.00
Logitech Driving Force Shifter For G29/g920 Racing Wheels - Dark	$70.98	$79.99	$9.01
Logitech G333 Vr In-ear Gaming Headphones For Meta Quest 2 - White	$39.99	$69.99	$30.00
Madden Nfl 23 (ps4)	$34.99	$54.99	$20.00
Madden Nfl 23 (ps5)	$39.99	$44.99	$5.00
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Madden Nfl 23 (xbox Series X)	$39.99	$64.99	$25.00
Mario + Rabbids Sparks Of Hope Cosmic Edition (switch) - Only At Best Buy	$39.99	$49.99	$10.00
Mario & Sonic At The Olympic Games: Tokyo 2020 (switch)	$49.99	$79.99	$30.00
Marvel's Midnight Suns Enhanced Edition (ps5)	$44.99	$49.99	$5.00
Marvel's Midnight Suns Enhanced Edition (xbox Series X)	$44.99	$49.95	$4.96
Meta Quest 2 128gb Vr Headset With Touch Controllers	$419.99	$529.99	$110.00
Meta Quest 2 256gb Vr Headset With Touch Controllers	$489.99	$589.99	$100.00
Minecraft Dungeons Ultimate Edition (windows) - Digital Download	$29.99	$51.99	$22.00
Minecraft Dungeons Ultimate Edition (xbox Series X/S / Xbox One) - Digital Download	$29.99	$51.99	$22.00
Minecraft Dungeons Ultimate Edition (xbox Series X / Xbox One)	$29.99	$49.99	$20.00
Mlb The Show 23 (ps4)	$49.99	$79.99	$30.00
Mlb The Show 22 (ps5)	$14.99	$39.99	$25.00
Mlb The Show 23 (ps5)	$64.99	$89.99	$25.00
Mlb The Show 23 (switch)	$54.99	$79.99	$25.00
Mlb The Show 23 (xbox One)	$54.99	$79.99	$25.00
Nba 2k23 (ps5)	$19.99	$29.99	$10.00
Nba 2k23 (ps4)	$19.99	$29.99	$10.00
Nba 2k23 (xbox One)	$19.99	$29.99	$10.00
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Nfs Unbound (ps5)	$49.99	$64.99	$15.00
Nfs Unbound (xbox Series X)	$49.99	$64.99	$15.00
Nhl 23 (ps4)	$34.99	$54.99	$20.00
Nhl 23 (ps5)	$39.99	$64.99	$25.00
Nhl 23 (xbox One)	$34.99	$54.99	$20.00
Nhl 23 (xbox Series X)	$39.99	$54.99	$15.00
Nier:automata (switch)	$39.99	$54.99	$15.00
Pga Tour: Road To The Masters (ps5)	$59.99	$89.99	$30.00
Pga Tour: Road To The Masters (xbox Series X)	$59.99	$89.99	$30.00
Playstation 5 God Of War Ragnarok Bundle	$669.99	$729.99	$60.00
Powera Dual Charging Station For Xbox Series X/S / Xbox One - White	$24.99	$34.99	$10.00
Powera Dual Controller Charging Stand For Xbox Series X/S / Xbox One	$24.99	$39.99	$15.00
Powera Spectra Enhanced Wired Controller For Switch - Black	$44.99	$49.99	$5.00
Powera Zelda Heroic Link Enhanced Wired Controller For Switch - Green	$29.99	$39.99	$10.00
Rabbids: Party Of Legends (switch)	$29.99	$49.99	$20.00
Ratchet & Clank (ps4)	$9.99	$19.99	$10.00
Ratchet & Clank: Rift Apart (ps5)	$39.99	$89.99	$50.00
Razer Kaira X Gaming Headset For Xbox Series X/S - Red	$53.98	$79.99	$26.01
Red Dead Redemption 2 (ps4)	$19.99	$79.99	$60.00
Red Dead Redemption 2 (xbox One)	$19.99	$79.99	$60.00
Riders Republic (ps5)	$29.99	$39.99	$10.00
Sackboy: A Big Adventure (ps5)	$29.99	$79.99	$50.00
Seagate 512gb Storage Expansion Card For Xbox Series X And Series S	$124.99	$149.99	$25.00
Seagate 1tb Storage Expansion Card For Xbox Series X And Series S	$209.99	$274.99	$65.00
Seagate 2tb Storage Expansion Card For Xbox Series X And Series S	$389.99	$489.99	$100.00
Seagate Xbox Certified 2tb Usb 3.0 Portable External Hard Drive With Green Led Bar (stkx2000400)	$106.99	$109.99	$3.00
Sea Of Thieves (xbox Series X/S / Xbox One / Windows 10) - Digital Download	$24.99	$49.99	$25.00
Sonic Colors Ultimate (switch)	$34.99	$49.99	$15.00
Sonic Frontiers (ps5)	$49.99	$79.99	$30.00
Sonic Frontiers (switch)	$49.99	$79.99	$30.00
Sony Inzone H9 Wireless Gaming Headset - White	$349.99	$399.99	$50.00
Soundcore By Anker Vr P10 In-ear Noise Cancelling Truly Wireless Headphones - White	$99.99	$129.99	$30.00
Spider-man: Miles Morales (ps5)	$29.99	$64.99	$35.00
Spider-man: Miles Morales (ps4)	$29.99	$64.99	$35.00
Spider-man: Miles Morales Ultimate Edition (ps5)	$49.99	$89.99	$40.00
Starlink: Battle For Atlas (xbox One)	$5.99	$7.99	$2.00
Steelseries Arctis Nova Pro X Wireless Gaming Headset For Xbox - Black	$432.98	$449.99	$17.01
Surge Dual Controller Charging Dock For Ps5	$22.99	$24.99	$2.00
Surge Dual Usb-c Controller Charging Cable For Ps5	$10.99	$12.99	$2.00
Surge Fps Grip Kit Controller & Thumb Stick Grips For Ps5 - Black	$9.99	$10.99	$1.00
Surge Multi-function Charge Stand For Ps5 - White	$54.99	$59.99	$5.00
Surge 11-piece Controller Accessory Starter Kit For Ps5 - Blue/black	$19.99	$29.99	$10.00
Surge Playstation 4 Controller Phone Mount - Black	$4.99	$7.99	$3.00
Surge Powerpack Battery & Charge Cable Set For Ps5	$14.99	$19.99	$5.00
Surge Temperedshield Screen Protector For Switch - 2 Pack	$9.99	$12.99	$3.00
Tactics Ogre: Reborn (ps5)	$39.99	$64.99	$25.00
The Diofield Chronicle (ps4)	$34.99	$49.95	$14.96
The Diofield Chronicle (xbox Series X / Xbox One)	$34.99	$37.98	$2.99
The Last Of Us: Part I (ps5)	$64.99	$89.99	$25.00
The Last Of Us Remastered (ps4)	$9.99	$19.99	$10.00
Thrustmaster Eswap S Pro Wired Controller For Xbox Series X/S / Xbox One / Pc - Black	$129.99	$169.99	$40.00
Thrustmaster Eswapx Pro Controller Module Pack - Blue Camo	$59.99	$69.99	$10.00
Thrustmaster Eswapx Pro Controller Module Pack - Green Camo	$59.99	$69.99	$10.00
Thrustmaster Eswap X Pro Controller Module Pack - Led Orange Crystal	$59.99	$69.99	$10.00
Thrustmaster Eswap X Pro Controller Module Pack - Red	$59.99	$69.99	$10.00
Thrustmaster Eswap X Pro Wired Controller For Xbox Series X/S / Xbox One / Pc	$179.99	$199.99	$20.00
Thrustmaster F/a 18 Grip Flight Stick Add-on	$299.99	$349.99	$50.00
Thrustmaster F-16c Viper Add-on Grip Stick	$299.99	$349.99	$50.00
Thrustmaster Ferrari F1 Racing Wheel	$239.99	$249.99	$10.00
Thrustmaster Formula Racing Wheel Add-on - Ferrari Sf1000 Edition	$449.99	$499.99	$50.00
Thrustmaster Open Wheel Add-on	$239.99	$279.99	$40.00
Thrustmaster Tca Captain Pack Airbus Edition For Xbox Series X/S & Xbox One/pc	$349.99	$429.99	$80.00
Thrustmaster Tca Quadrant Add-on Airbus Edition For Pc	$139.99	$149.99	$10.00
Thrustmaster Tca Quadrant Airbus Edition For Pc	$149.99	$179.99	$30.00
Thrustmaster Tca Sidestick Airbus Edition For Pc	$109.99	$129.99	$20.00
Thrustmaster T.flight Hotas 4 Flight Stick For Ps5/ps4/pc	$99.99	$119.99	$20.00
Thrustmaster T.flight Hotas One Flight Stick For Xbox Series X/S & Xbox One/pc	$109.99	$119.99	$10.00
Thrustmaster Tfrp Flight Rudder Pedals For Ps4/pc - Black	$169.99	$179.99	$10.00
Thrustmaster Th8a Gearbox Shifter	$249.99	$269.99	$20.00
Thrustmaster T248p Racing Wheel & Magnetic Pedal Set For Xbox/pc	$439.99	$549.99	$110.00
Thrustmaster Tpr Pendular Rudder	$739.99	$799.99	$60.00
Thrustmaster T248 Racing Wheel & Magnetic Pedals For Ps5/ps4/pc	$439.99	$549.99	$110.00
Thrustmaster T128 Racing Wheel & Magnetic Pedals For Ps5/ps4/pc	$239.99	$279.99	$40.00
Thrustmaster T128 Racing Wheel & Magnetic Pedals For Xbox Series X/S & Xbox One/pc	$239.99	$279.99	$40.00
Thrustmaster T300rs Gt Racing Wheel For Ps5/ps4/pc	$529.99	$649.99	$120.00
Thrustmaster Tx Racing Wheel Leather Edition For Xbox One	$649.99	$699.99	$50.00
Tom Clancy's Rainbow Six Extraction (xbox Series X / Xbox One)	$29.97	$34.97	$5.00
Tony Hawk’s Pro Skater 1 + 2 (ps4)	$29.99	$59.99	$30.00
Tony Hawk’s Pro Skater 1 + 2 (xbox One)	$29.99	$59.99	$30.00
Turtle Beach Battle Buds Gaming Headset For Switch - Black	$39.98	$44.99	$5.01
Turtle Beach Ear Force Recon 70 Gaming Headset With Microphone For Playstation 4 - Black	$39.99	$49.99	$10.00
Turtle Beach Ear Force Recon 70 Over-ear Gaming Headset - Blue Camo	$39.99	$49.99	$10.00
Turtle Beach Ear Force Recon 70 Over-ear Gaming Headset - Green Camo	$39.99	$49.99	$10.00
Turtle Beach Ear Force Recon 70 Over-ear Gaming Headset - Silver	$39.99	$49.99	$10.00
Turtle Beach Ear Force Recon 50p Playstation 4 Headset - Black	$34.98	$39.99	$5.01
Turtle Beach Gaming Headset With Microphone For Switch - Black/red	$39.99	$49.99	$10.00
Turtle Beach Recon 500 Gaming Headset - Arctic Camo	$59.99	$69.98	$9.99
Turtle Beach Recon 500 Gaming Headset - Black	$59.99	$69.99	$10.00
Turtle Beach Recon 70 Gaming Headset With Microphone For Xbox One - Black/green	$39.99	$49.99	$10.00
Turtle Beach Recon 70 Gaming Headset With Microphone For Xbox One - White/green	$39.99	$49.99	$10.00
Turtle Beach Recon 200 Gen 2 Gaming Headset - Black	$64.98	$79.99	$15.01
Turtle Beach Recon 70 Over-ear Gaming Headset - White	$39.99	$49.99	$10.00
Turtle Beach Recon Spark Gaming Headset With Microphone - White/lavender	$49.99	$69.99	$20.00
Turtle Beach Stealth 600 Gen 2 Max Multiplatform Wireless Gaming Headset - Arctic Camo	$139.99	$169.99	$30.00
Turtle Beach Stealth 600 Gen 2 Max Multiplatform Wireless Gaming Headset - Midnight Red	$139.99	$169.99	$30.00
Turtle Beach Stealth 600 Gen 2 Max Wireless Gaming Headset - Black	$139.99	$169.99	$30.00
Turtle Beach Stealth 600 Gen 2 Max Wireless Gaming Headset For Ps5/ps4 - Arctic Camo	$139.99	$169.99	$30.00
Turtle Beach Stealth 600 Gen 2 Max Wireless Gaming Headset For Ps5/ps4 - Black	$129.98	$139.99	$10.01
Turtle Beach Stealth 600 Gen 2 Max Wireless Gaming Headset For Ps5/ps4 - Midnight Red	$139.99	$169.99	$30.00
Uncharted: Legacy Of Thieves Collection (ps5)	$29.99	$64.99	$35.00
Uncharted: The Nathan Drake Collection (ps4)	$9.99	$19.99	$10.00
Until Dawn (ps4)	$9.99	$19.99	$10.00
Watch Dogs: Legion (ps4)	$24.99	$29.99	$5.00
Wd_black D30 Game Drive 2tb Usb-c External Solid State Drive For Ps4 (wdbatl0020bbk-wesn)	$254.99	$294.99	$40.00
Wd_black D30 Game Drive 1tb Usb-c External Solid State Drive For Ps4 (wdbatl0010bbk-wesn)	$159.99	$164.99	$5.00
Wd_black D30 Game Drive 2tb Usb-c External Solid State Drive For Xbox (wdbamf0020bbw-wesn)	$314.99	$354.99	$40.00

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Item	Sale Price	MSRP	Savings
Acer Nitro 5 15.6" Gaming Laptop - Black (intel Core I5-11400h/512gb Ssd/8gb Ram/gtx 1650/windows 11)	799.99	999.99	200.00
Acer Nitro 5 15.6" Gaming Laptop - Black (intel Core I7-12700h/512gb Ssd/16gb Ram/rtx 3050 Ti/windows 11)	1299.99	1699.99	400.00
Asus Rog Strix G16 16" Gaming Laptop - Eclipse Grey (intel Core I7-13650hx/512gb Ssd/32gb Ram/geforce Rtx 4050)	1799.99	1999.99	200.00
Asus Tuf Dash F15 15.6" Gaming Laptop (intel Core I7-12650h/512gb Ssd/16gb Ram/geforce rtx 3060/win11)	1399.99	1699.99	300.00
Asus Tuf Gaming F15 15.6" Gaming Laptop - Black (intel Core I5-11400h/512gb Ssd/16gb Ram/rtx 2050)	899.99	999.99	100.00
Asus Tuf Gaming F17 17.3" Gaming Laptop - Mecha Grey (intel Core I7-12700h/1tb Ssd/16gb Ram/rtx 3050)	1299.99	1399.99	100.00
Asus Zephyrus G16 16" Gaming Laptop - Eclipse Grey (intel Core I7-12700h/1tb Ssd/16gb Ram/geforce Rtx 4050)	1899.99	1999.99	100.00
Dell Alienware M15 R7 15.6" Gaming Laptop (intel Core I7-12700h/1tb Ssd/16gb Ram/geforce Rtx 3070 Ti)	2399.99	2899.99	500.00
Dell G15 15.6" Gaming Laptop -black (intel Core I7-12700h/512gb Ssd/16gb Ram/geforce Rtx 3060/win11)	1499.99	1899.99	400.00
Forza Horizon 4 (xbox One)	24.97	24.97	45.00
Forza Horizon 5 (xbox Series X / Xbox One)	39.99	39.99	40.00
Halo Infinite (xbox Series X / Xbox One)	19.99	19.99	60.00
Meta Quest 2 128gb Vr Headset With Touch Controllers	419.99	419.99	110.00
Meta Quest 2 256gb Vr Headset With Touch Controllers	489.99	489.99	100.00
Minecraft Dungeons Ultimate Edition (xbox Series X / Xbox One)	29.99	29.99	20.00
Msi Katana 17.3" Gaming Laptop - Black (intel Core I7-13620h/1tb Ssd/16gb Ram/geforce Rtx 4060)	1999.99	2099.99	100.00
Msi Pulse 17.3" Gaming Laptop -titanium Grey (intel Core I7-13700h/1tb Ssd/32gb Ram/geforce Rtx 4070)	2399.99	2699.99	300.00
Msi Stealth 16 Studio 16" Gaming Laptop - Star Blue (intel Core I7-13620h/1tb Ssd/32gb Ram/rtx 4060)	2449.99	2599.99	150.00
Msi Thin Gf63 15.6" Gaming Laptop - Black (intel Core I7-12650h/1tb Ssd/16gb Ram/geforce Rtx 3050)	1199.99	1299.99	100.00
Msi Vector Gp77 17.3" Gaming Laptop -core Black (intel Core I9-13900h/1tb Ssd/32gb Ram/geforce Rtx 4070)	2849.99	2999.99	150.00
Xbox Wireless Controller - Carbon Black	59.99	59.99	15.00
Xbox Wireless Controller - Carbon Black	59.99	59.99	15.00
Xbox Wireless Controller - Deep Pink	59.99	59.99	15.00
Xbox Wireless Controller - Electric Volt	59.99	59.99	15.00
Xbox Wireless Controller - Pulse Red	59.99	59.99	15.00
Xbox Wireless Controller - Robot White	59.99	59.99	15.00
Xbox Wireless Controller - Shock Blue	59.99	59.99	15.00
Xbox Wireless Controller - Stellar Shift Special Edition	64.99	64.99	15.00
Xbox Wireless Controller - Sunkissed Vibes Opi Special Edition	64.99	64.99	15.00

Top Deals

Item	Sale Price	MSRP	Savings
Acer 31.5" Fhd 165hz 1ms Gtg Curved Va Led Freesync Gaming Monitor (ed320qr Sbiipx) - Only At Best Buy	$269.99	$399.99	$130.00
Asus Vivobook M515 15.6" Laptop - Slate Grey (amd Ryzen 3 3250u/512gb Ssd/8gb Ram/windows 11 Home)	$499.99	$649.99	$150.00
Danby Portable Air Conditioner - 13500 Btu (sacc 10220 Btu) - White	$549.99	$699.99	$150.00
Dji Mini 3 Quadcopter Drone Fly More Combo & Remote Control With Built-in Screen (dji Rc) - Grey	$989.99	$1,108.99	$119.00
Dyson V8 Animal Cordless Stick Vacuum - Nickel	$399.99	$549.99	$150.00
Google Nest Cam Wire-free Indoooutdoor Security Camera - 3 Pack - White - Only At Best Buy	$499.99	$599.99	$100.00
Google Nest Wifi Pro Wi-fi 6e Router - Snow - 3 Pack	$419.99	$529.99	$110.00
Google Pixel Watch (gps) 40mm Matte Black Stainless Steel Case With Obsidian Active Band	$399.99	$399.99	$0.00
Google Pixel Watch (gps) 40mm Polished Silver Stainless Steel Case With Charcoal Active Band	$399.99	$399.99	$0.00
Hp Deskjet 2755e Wireless All-in-one Inkjet Printer - Hp Instant Ink 6-month Free Trial Included*	$74.99	$104.99	$30.00
Hp 15" Laptop - Jet Black (intel I5 1135g7/512gb Ssd/16gb Ram/windows 11 Home)	$699.99	$829.99	$130.00
Jbl Charge 5 Waterproof Bluetooth Wireless Speaker - Black	$179.99	$239.99	$60.00
Jbl Charge 5 Waterproof Bluetooth Wireless Speaker - Blue	$179.99	$239.99	$60.00
Jbl Charge 5 Waterproof Bluetooth Wireless Speaker - Pink	$179.99	$179.99	$0.00
Jbl Charge 5 Waterproof Bluetooth Wireless Speaker - Red	$179.99	$239.99	$60.00
Jbl Charge 5 Waterproof Bluetooth Wireless Speaker - Teal	$179.99	$179.99	$0.00
Lenovo Ideacentre 3i Desktop Pc - Cloud Grey (intel Core I5-12400/256gb Ssd/8gb Ram/windows 11)	$599.99	$799.99	$200.00
Logitech Mx Keys Wireless Backlit Keyboard - English	$129.99	$149.99	$20.00
Meta Quest 2 128gb Vr Headset With Touch Controllers	$419.99	$529.99	$110.00
Meta Quest 2 256gb Vr Headset With Touch Controllers	$489.99	$589.99	$100.00
Nanoleaf Shapes Mini Triangle Panels - Smarter Kit - 5 Panels	$59.97	$149.97	$90.00
Samsung Galaxy Buds2 In-ear Noise Cancelling Truly Wireless Headphones - Black	$139.99	$189.99	$50.00
Samsung Galaxy Buds2 In-ear Noise Cancelling Truly Wireless Headphones - Lavender	$139.99	$189.99	$50.00
Samsung Galaxy Buds2 In-ear Noise Cancelling Truly Wireless Headphones - Olive Green	$139.99	$189.99	$50.00
Samsung Galaxy Buds2 In-ear Noise Cancelling Truly Wireless Headphones - White	$139.99	$189.99	$50.00
Samsung Galaxy Watch5 (gps) 44mm Smartwatch With Heart Rate Monitor - Blue	$329.99	$389.99	$60.00
Samsung Galaxy Watch5 (gps) 44mm Smartwatch With Heart Rate Monitor - Grey	$329.99	$389.99	$60.00
Samsung Galaxy Watch5 (gps) 44mm Smartwatch With Heart Rate Monitor - Silver	$329.99	$389.99	$60.00
Samsung 65" 4k Uhd Hdr Led Tizen Smart Tv (un65cu8000fxzc) - 2023	$999.99	$1,099.99	$100.00
Samsung 55" 4k Uhd Hdr Neo Qled Tizen Smart Tv (qn55qn90cafxzc) - 2023 - Titan Black	$2,299.99	$2,399.99	$100.00
Sony Wh-ch720n Over-ear Noise Cancelling Bluetooth Headphones - Black	$149.99	$249.99	$100.00
Sony Wh-ch720n Over-ear Noise Cancelling Bluetooth Headphones - Blue	$149.99	$249.99	$100.00
Sony Wh-ch720n Over-ear Noise Cancelling Bluetooth Headphones - White	$149.99	$249.99	$100.00
Canon Eos R10 Mirrorless Camera With 18-45mm Stm Lens Kit	$1,199.99	$1,329.99	$130.00
Napoleon Rogue 425 42000 Btu Propane Bbq With Grill Cover - Black - Only At Best Buy	$899.99	$999.99	$100.00
Samsung 30" French Door Refrigerator; Electric Air Fry Range; Dishwasher; Cookware Set - Stainless	$2,999.99	$3,749.99	$750.00
Seagate 1tb Storage Expansion Card For Xbox Series X And Series S	$209.99	$274.99	$65.00
Sonos Arc Sound Bar - Black	$879.99	$1,099.99	$220.00

Outlet Center Sale

Item	Sale Price	MSRP	Savings
Apple Ipad Pro 12.9" (6th Gen) Apple M2 Chip / 256gb / Wi-fi / Space Gray - Open Box	1349.99	1629.99	280.00
Bitdefender Total Security Bonus Edition (pc/mac/ios/android) - 5 User - 3 Year - Only At Best Buy	59.99	159.99	100.00
Lg 24" 46db Built-in Dishwasher With Third Rack (ldts5552s) - Stainless Steel	899.99	1049.99	150.00
Lg 23.8" Fhd 75hz 5ms Gtg Ips Led Freesync Gaming Monitor (24mp44b-b) - Black - Open Box	99.00	212.00	113.00
Naz Dynamo Mid-back Mesh Office Chair - Black	99.99	139.99	40.00
Open Box - Apple Watch Series 8 (gps) 45mm Midnight Aluminum Case With Midnight Sport Band - Medium/large	484.99	569.99	85.00
Open Box - Sonos Ray Sound Bar - Black	239.99	299.99	60.00
Refurbished (good) - Samsung Galaxy S20 Fe 5g 128gb Smartphone - Cloud Navy - Unlocked	243.37	700.37	457.00
Samsung 65" 4k Uhd Oled Tizen Smart Tv (qn65s95bafxzc) - Open Box	1839.99	2079.99	240.00
Samsung 49" Wqhd 240hz 1ms Gtg Curved Va Led G-sync Freesync Gaming Monitor (ls49ag952nnxza) -open Box	1699.99	1827.99	128.00
Sonos Roam Bluetooth Wireless Speaker With Google Assistant And Amazon Alexa - Black - Open Box	149.99	219.99	70.00
Sony Bravia 55" 4k Uhd Hdr Led Google Tv Smart Tv (xr55x90k) - 2022 - Open Box	899.99	1019.99	120.00
Sony X80k 75" 4k Uhd Hdr Led Smart Google Tv (kd75x80k) - 2022 - Open Box	1359.99	1359.99	0.00

Smart Home Sale

Item	Sale Price	MSRP	Savings
Amazon Echo Show 5 (2nd Gen) Smart Display With Alexa - Charcoal	69.99	99.99	30.00
Amazon Echo Show 15.6" Smart Display With Alexa & Fire Tv - Black/white	249.99	329.99	80.00
Arlo Essential Spotlight Wire-free Indoooutdoor 1080p Security Camera - White - 4 Pack - Only At Best Buy	339.99	399.99	60.00
Arlo Pro 4 Spotlight Camera Security Bundle With 3 Wire-free Indoooutdoor 2k Cameras - White - Only At Best Buy	399.99	599.99	200.00
Click And Grow Smart Indoor Garden (sgs1us) With Basil Seed Capsule Refill - 3 Pack - White	99.99	129.99	30.00
Eufy Eufycam 2 Pro Wireless Security System With 2 Bullet 2k Cameras - White	349.99	479.99	130.00
Ge Cync A19 Smart Led Light Bulb - Multi-colour	12.99	17.99	5.00
Google Nest Cam Wire-free Indoooutdoor Security Camera - 3 Pack - White - Only At Best Buy	499.99	599.99	100.00
Google Nest Hub Max Smart Display With Google Assistant - Charcoal	238.99	299.99	61.00
Google Nest Hub (2nd Gen) Smart Display With Google Assistant - Charcoal	79.99	129.99	50.00
Google Nest (wired) Wi-fi Video Doorbell (2nd Gen) - Ash	199.99	239.99	40.00
Google Nest X Yale Wi-fi Smart Lock With Nest Connect - Black Suede	339.99	358.99	19.00
Nanoleaf Shapes Mini Triangle Panels - Smarter Kit - 5 Panels	59.97	149.97	90.00
Ring Floodlight Cam Wired Plus Outdoor 1080p Hd Ip Camera - White	169.99	259.99	90.00
Ring Wi-fi Video Doorbell Pro 2 - Satin Nickel	234.99	328.99	94.00

Hello all! I've got some decants for available for sale. Bundles available... Scroll down! Please comment before PMing/chatting! Chat preferred.
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New this week:
BDK Parfums - Gris Charnel EDP
Nasomatto - Baraonda
Nasomatto - Black Afgano
Nasomatto - Duro
Nasomatto - Pardon
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Decants available:

Designer:	2mL:	5mL:	10mL:
Armaf Club de Nuit Intense Man EDP	$2	$4	$7
Blu Atlas Atlantis EDP	$4	$9	$16
Dolce & Gabbana The One EDP	$4	$7	$13
Dolce & Gabbana The One EDT	$3	$6	$10
Guerlain L'Homme Ideal EDP (Out of stock)	$4	$9	$16
Lalique Encre Noire EDT	$2	$4	$7
Prada Amber Pour Homme Intense EDP	$4	$7	$12
Versace Eros Flame EDP	$4	$7	$12
Versace Pour Homme EDT	$3	$5	$8

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Niche:	2mL:	5mL:	10mL:
BDK Parfums Gris Charnel EDP	$7	$16	$28
Escentric Molecules Molecule 01	$4	$9	$16
Etat Libre d'Orange Hermann a Mes Cotes EDP	$5	$11	$19
Etat Libre d'Orange You or Someone Like You EDP	$5	$11	$19
Histoires de Parfums Ambre 114 EDP	$6	$13	$23
Histoires de Parfums Outrecuidant	$7	$15	$25
Histoires de Parfums Prolixe	$7	$15	$25
Histoires de Parfums 1725 EDP	$6	$13	$23
Histoires de Parfums 1969 Parfum de Revolte EDP	$6	$13	$23
Juliette has a Gun Moscow Mule EDP	$5	$11	$19
Juliette has a Gun Not a Perfume EDP	$5	$11	$19
Juliette has a Gun Vanilla Vibes EDP	$5	$11	$19
Maison Francis Kurkdjian Baccarat Rouge 540 EDP	$13	$23	$37
Maison Francis Kurkdjian Gentle Fluidity Silver EDP	$11	$22	$35
Maison Margelia Replica (Untitled) L'Eau	$12	$25	$40
Nasomatto Baraonda	$14	$33	-
Nasomatto Black Afgano	$14	$33	-
Nasomatto Duro	$14	$33	-
Nasomatto Pardon	$14	$33	-
Parfums de Marley Herod	$9	$19	$31
Parfums de Marley Layton	$9	$19	$31
Parfums de Marley Pegasus	$9	$19	$31
Serge Lutens Fille en Aiguilles (Out of stock)	$18	$36	$58
Xerjoff Naxos EDP	$11	$25	$43

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Discontinued:	2mL:	5mL:	10mL:
Guerlain L'Homme Ideal Cologne	$7	$16	$28
Mugler A*Men Pure Havane	$9	$19	$31
YSL La Nuit de L'Homme Bleu Electrique	$7	$13	$21

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Make your own bundles of 3 or 5 decants for heavy discounts! (10+ decant bundles available, chat for more information)

• MAKE YOUR OWN BUNDLE 3 (MYOB3):
  • 2mL bundle: 3 x any 2mL decants - 5% off
  • 5mL bundle: 3 x any 5mL decants - 10% off
  • 10mL bundle: 3 x any 10mL decants - 15% off
• MAKE YOUR OWN BUNDLE 5 (MYOB5):
  • 2mL bundle: 5 x any 2mL decants - 10% off
  • 5mL bundle: 5 x any 5mL decants - 15% off
  • 10mL bundle: 5 x any 10mL decants - 20% off

**The Designer category cannot be combined with Niche/Discontinued, while the Niche and Discontinued category can be combined for the MYOB bundles*\*
**All 10mL MYOB bundles will come in the nicer bottles, including designers*\*
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Shipping:
CONUS only. $9 flat. All packages will be shipped out via USPS parcel select ground within 1-2 business days after payment and will take 2-8 days to arrive.
Orders of single 2mL decants can be shipped via USPS first class for $4.
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Payment methods:
PayPal F&F or Zelle.
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Notes:
- Decants will come in bottles that look like this
- Niche and discontinued 10mL decants will come in nicer bottles.
- Upgrade designer 10mLs to the nicer bottles for $1!
- All decants will come sealed with PTFE/Teflon tape.
- Clearly labeled with fragrance house and name.
- They will be individually wrapped and packaged using a small plastic bag, bubble wrap, and cardboard support.

Apart from Jesus Christ, John the Baptist is probably the most theologically significant figure in the Gospels. As was the case with Jesus, his birth was meticulously recorded ( Luke 1:5-25 ). His entrance into the world was marked by angelic proclamation and divine intervention ( Luke 1:57-80 ). John's birth not only parallels that of Jesus, but echoes the momentous occasion of the birth of Isaac to Abraham and Sarah ( Gen 17:15-22 ; 21:1-7 ). John is clearly a pivotal figure in the salvation history of God.
Although his formative years were lived in obscurity in the desert ( Luke 1:80 ), his public ministry ended nearly four hundred years of prophetic silence. John was that voice crying in the wilderness preparing the way for the coming Messiah ( Isa 40:3 ; Matt 3:3 ; Mark 1:2-3 ; Luke 3:3-6 ). In this sense his message and ministry marked the culmination of the law and the prophets, but heralded the inbreaking of the kingdom of God ( Matt 11:12 ; Luke 16:16 ). So John was truly a transitional figure, forming the link between the Old and New Testaments. He spans the ages with one foot firmly planted in the Old Testament and the other squarely placed in the New.
The central theme of his ministry was, "Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is near" ( Matt 3:2 ).He was called "The Baptist" because his practice was to baptize those who responded to the message he proclaimed and sincerely repented of their sins ( Matt 3:1 ; Mark 6:14 ; Luke 7:20 ).
John was an end-times prophet. He conducted his ministry with an eschatological authority that demanded immediate action. He taught that judgment is at hand. The axe is laid to the roots and God will thoroughly purge his threshing floor ( Matt 3:10-12 ; Luke 3:9 Luke 3:17 ). And the authenticity of repentance was evidenced in very practical terms: share with those in need, eliminate graft, and prohibit extortion ( Luke 3:11-14 ).
John's lifestyle was as austere as his message. He was an ascetic living in the wilderness, clothed in camel hair and subsisting on locusts and wild honey ( Matt 3:4 ; Mark 1:6 ). Unlike Jesus, he expected people to come to him, rather than he going to them ( Matt 3:5 ).
John was no "crowd pleaser." He willingly confronted the hypocrisy of the religious establishment ( Matt 3:7 ; Luke 3:7 ). He did not hesitate to expose the immorality of Herod and chose to die a martyr's death rather than compromise his convictions ( Matt 14:3-12 ; Mark 6:17-29 ).
All of these characteristics portray John as a fiery prophet proclaiming the apocalyptic message of God. Indeed, Luke says that John came "in the spirit and power of Elijah" ( Luke1:17 ). He goes on to allude to Malachi 4:5, which states that Elijah will return "before that great and dreadful day of the Lord." In fact, some contemporaries of John inquired if he were Elijah ( John 1:21 ).
The belief that Elijah would return and prepare the way of the Lord can be traced to Malachi 3:1 and 4:5. Such belief is also found in the extra biblical accounts of Sirah 48:10 and 2 Esdras 6:2f. The Gospels also indicate that many believed that Elijah would come first, and then the Christ ( Matt 11:14 ; 17:10 ; Mark 6:15 ; 9:11 ; Luke 9:8 ).
John flatly denied that he was Elijah reincarnated ( John 1:21 John 1:25 ). Nevertheless Jesus affirmed that Elijah must come first and that he had come in the person of John the Baptist ( Matt 17:11-13 ; Mark 9:12-13 ). John fulfilled Malachi's prophecy in a spiritual sense, rather than in a literal way.
In this way Jesus acknowledges the central role that John played in God's plan of salvation. He was the greatest born among women because he had the privilege of pointing to the Lamb of God ( John 1:29-34 ).Yet as the last great prophet of the pre-Christian era, he was the least in the kingdom of God ( Matt 11:11 ; Luke 7:28 ).
John fully accepted his subordinate role to Christ. He denied that he was the Christ and repeatedly emphasized that he was simply a witness to the Light ( John 1:19-23 ; cf. also John 1:6-9 ; John 3:27-30 ). John stated that Jesus was greater than he, and that Jesus had a more powerful ministry and baptism ( Mark 1:7-8 ; Luke 3:16 ; John 1:26-27 ). He did not want to baptize Jesus, but rather desired to be baptized by Jesus ( Matt 3:13-14 ).John allowed his disciples to leave his own leadership and follow after Jesus ( John 1:35-39 ).
But for all of his greatness, John was merely human. In this sense he too joined in the popular speculations about the identity of Christ. It may be that John's vision of the Messiah varied so much from what he heard and saw in Jesus, that he came to question if Jesus were really the Christ ( Matt 11:1-2 ; Luke 7:18 ). The fact that Jesus was not an ascetic, and that he actively sought the fellowship of publicans and sinners may have been an offense to John and his disciples ( Matt 9:9-17 ; Matt 11:18-19 ; Luke 7:33-34 ).Jesus may have rebuked John in this regard when he said, "Blessed is the man who does not fall away on account of me" ( Matt 11:6 ; Luke 7:23 ).
Finally, even though John was merely a witness serving as a transitional figure, the impact of his life and ministry should not be underestimated. During his lifetime he had a following of disciples who shared common practices such as fasting and prayers ( Matt 9:14 ; John 1:35-37 ; 4:1-2 ). John's disciples survived his death and spread throughout the Mediterranean world. Apollos was from Alexandria in North Africa and at one point knew only of the baptism of John ( Acts 18:24-25 ). Similarly, upon arriving in Ephesus, Paul encountered about a dozen disciples of John. They too had only experienced the baptism of John ( Acts 19:1-7 ). These instances indicate that the Baptist's movement may have had more influence than what we are able to glean from the New Testament.
In recent scholarship, the historical relationship between Jesus and John has been the subject of study. How did Jesus view John and what did John make of Jesus' ministry? In this type of study, John often serves as a paradigm for interpreting the life and ministry of Jesus. For example, the inclusion of the suffering and death of John may foreshadow the pain and death of Jesus on the cross. Also, to what extent did John influence the life and ministry of Jesus? Indeed, the ill treatment of John by Herod Antipas may have had a significant impact upon Jesus' early ministry in Galilee and in his final days in Jerusalem.
The early Christian traditions that form the Gospel material on John are also the focus of modern research. For example, the scathing accusations and warnings of John are associated with the ministry of Jesus ( Luke 3:7-18 ), but in the end are not typical of his message. Also there appears to have been an early tradition that John had been raised from the dead ( Mark 6:14-16 ). What possible sources may have given rise to these traditions?
Even the topographical setting of John's ministry may be of theological significance. The desert setting may underscore the stark nature of John's message or may be symbolic of Israel's struggle in the desert.
And finally, the psychological and sociological analysis of John is of interest here. In accordance with the criteria of the sociology of deviance, John's behavior and message could be classified as "deviant." In this light, Matthew's use of Isaiah 40:2-3 in 3:7-10 may seek to justify John and endorse the legitimacy of his ministry.
In conclusion, John the Baptist is of great theological importance in the New Testament. He ended nearly four hundred years of prophetic silence and paved the way for the Messiah. In the spirit of Elijah, he preached a message of repentance and baptism. In his darkest hour he questioned if Jesus was the One who was to come, or whether there would be another. He inaugurated a spiritual movement that had influence long after his death and extended throughout the Mediterranean world.
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After sitting, Markus realized that he would need to exchange his money for the local currency. He rushed back into the airport and found an exchange service. He traded nearly a thousand dollars for yen, receiving nearly 140 thousand yen, in bills and coins. Thanking the trader, he rushed back outside to wait for his bus.
As he was waiting, he spied a taxi nearby and wondered if it would be better. He walked over and knocked on the window.
“_I’m sorry, excuse me? How much to get to Rikyuan Kyoto Nishikyogoku?_”
The driver blinked twice and looked at this rude American. “_Nine thousand. No less._”
Markus slid into the back seat and fished out ten thousand yen, and handed it to the driver.
“Thank you, sir. Today is my first day in your country, and I would just like to get to my room and sleep. I have an important meeting tomorrow, and I’d like to be as refreshed as possible,_” While Markus’ Japanese wasn’t great, it _was passable, and better than most Americans.
The driver grunted an acknowledgement, and off they sped into the night. Along the way, Markus watched the lit streets for anything recognizable. Finding little beyond 7-11 gas stations and some obvious convenience stores, he quizzed the driver.
“_Excuse me? Where can I find a stylist? I’d like to look my best for my meeting._”
“_A stylist? For hair? You’re as bald as a baby. Or do you mean that mop on your face?_”
Markus looked sharply at the rearview mirror, only to see the smiling, mirthful eyes of the driver. He laughed softly. “_Yes, friend. I’d like to get this unruly mop tamed. Do you have any suggestions?_”
The driver was quiet for a moment, apparently thinking. “_One moment, please. I have to call him,_” he said as he pulled out a cell phone and dialed a number.
“_Yes? Gen-kun? You want to make some money? Got an American here. Needs his beard taken care of professionally. Says he has an important business meeting tomorrow. Where? I dunno. Let me ask._” The driver spoke up to Markus. “_Hey, man. Where did you say this meeting was?_”
“_Uh…A place called Kitcho Arashiyama, I think. Why?_”
The driver let out a low whistle. “_Kitcho, huh? They must have some money. Hey! This offer will be amazing, man! You better take it. Not everyone can afford to eat there._”
“_Really? I think we are just meeting for tea, though. I don’t even know this man. Just got a letter out of the blue, and here I am. A lonely gaijin here in your amazingly beautiful country for the first, and probably last, time. I hope I’ve not been tricked. The gods have been merciless toward me lately,_” Markus replied.
“_Gen-kun? You hear all that? He’s going to Kitcho. Do him up right, and we might be taken care of, too! Okay. Okay. I’ll tell him. Bye, bro._”
Markus laughed softly. “_I’ll tell you what. If I land this job, or whatever it’s going to be, and it’s lucrative enough, I’ll call on you and your brother to drive me around and make sure I am as presentable as possible, and I’ll make sure you two are taken care of. How does that sound?_”
The driver looked up in the mirror, awe evident on his face. “_You would do that? A lowly cab driver like me and a hair stylist like my brother?_” he asked quietly.
“_Absolutely. I reward kindness with kindness my friend. I don’t have much right now, but if this goes well enough, I will take care of you and your brother._”
“You have a deal, American. What is your name?”
“Your English is pretty good. I am Markus Barton. And you are?”
“I am glad to meet you, Barton-san. I am Kimura Atsuki.”
“Thank you, Kimura-san.”
Atsuki grunted an acknowledgement and refocused on the road. In a few more minutes, they arrived at the small inn.
Markus got out, retrieving his bag from the back seat. Atsuki exited as well, taking a good look at this surprisingly kind, yet rude, American.
He saw a man, heavily built, with a bushy black beard that reached down to the middle of his chest. Broad shoulders that wouldn’t be out of place for a farmhand, but decidedly odd for a salaryman. A slightly too small t-shirt clung to his body, showing a bit of a beer belly, and most interesting of all, he seemed to be wearing a black skirt.
“_Barton-san? Why do you wear a woman’s skirt?_”
“_Hmm? Oh this? This isn’t a woman’s skirt. It’s called a kilt. It comes from the people of the British Isles. My family comes from that area, and once I tried it on, I was hooked. No pants for me ever again._”
“_Huh. You learn something new every day._”
“_Here is my contact information, Kimura-san. I will call on you should I take the offer. By the way, do you know of any decent restaurants or noodle shops in the area? I’m hungry._”
Atsuki laughed loudly. “_You were my last fare. I will wait, and then take my new friend out for dinner at a good place. Go. Check in, and I’ll see you back here._”
Markus smiled and nodded. He rushed inside and took care of business, being shown to a room on the ground floor. He deposited his bag inside, just past the genkan, locked the door, and returned to his new friend, hopping back in the taxi, to explore what Kyoto had to offer.
Atsuki took an appraising look at Markus. Nodding his head with a finality, he said, “_I am taking you to a good ramen-ya. You say you are hungry, and I say you will eat. Let’s go!_” He smiled and slapped the dashboard of his taxi, taking off into the night.
Atsuki and Markus chatted in a mish-mash of English and Japanese, getting to know each other as well as they could in the fifteen minute drive to the ramen-ya.
It turned out that Atsuki was recently divorced from his wife of four years and had no children. He and his brother, Gen, lived in a modest apartment not terribly far from the Rikyuan that Markus was staying at. He was an avid gamer, something of a shut-in, and had a collection of U.S coins.
“I am only missing the Arkansas _(he pronounced the final ‘S’), and the Marysland state quarters for 2022. I have the other years already. They are in mint condition and sealed in special bags so that they do not tarnish. Pretty neat, huh?_”
Markus gave him a lopsided grin. “_Have you ever met another American, Kimura-san?_” When Atsuki gave him a negative answer, Markus nodded. “_Very well. I shall help you some. I’m not really into coin collecting, but I think it’s pretty neat that you are. You’re the only person I know who is, if I’m honest. The state names are pronounced like this: Arr-can-saw and Maryland. There isn’t an ‘s’ in Maryland. I know it seems like there should be, but there isn’t. I can’t really tell you why Arkansas is said the way that it is, though. I don’t think I have either of those two quarters on me, though. Let me look._”
Markus dug around in his left pocket, pulling out the change there. He shuffled through the coins, not expecting to find anything larger than a dime, but came across a quarter. He unlocked his phone, using the screen to illuminate his findings. It was a 2022 quarter, but it was Hawai’i, not either of the ones Atsuki needed.
“_Nope. Just Hawai’i. Sorry, man._”
“_Bah. Thank you for looking, though. You’re a good man. I appreciate it very much. Ah. We are here. It may be just a little hole in the wall, but it happens to be one of my favorites. I apologize for the traffic. We would be here in half the time, had it not been bad,_” Atsuki said.
Markus smiled. “_Fifteen minutes is a short drive where I’m from. Don’t worry about it. Let’s just enjoy some ramen, yeah?_” he asked.
Atsuki nodded with a smile, and the pair walked in. Markus noticed that the shop was sparsely populated with people, and the gentleman behind the counter was relaxing with a book. Decidedly odd.
“_Yo, Komamura-san! Two bowls of tonkatsu with lots of chashu for me and my new friend, Barton-san! Firm, please. Thank you._”
Komamura grunted a reply and set about making the requested ramen, and the pair sat at the counter. Atsuki ordered a beer for both of them, and the two chatted and ate for quite some time.
At least until the shop began to get busy. When Atsuki noticed the line beginning to form outside, he paid the bill and thanked the chef.
Komamura glared at Markus for a moment, his face devoid of expression. “_Why did you bring a gaijin to my shop, punk?_”
“_This gaijin, my friend, has an interview tomorrow at Kitcho. He has promised to take care of my brother and I if he gets the job. Right, Barton-san?_” Atsuki shot back.
“_He is right, Komamura-san. If I do well, I will do what I can for the brothers. Kimura-san has been very helpful to me, and if his brother can tame this mop on my face, I’ll help him, too,_” Markus said, gazing softly at the older man.
Komamura grunted a reply and returned to his customers. As the pair were leaving, he shouted “_Good luck, Barton-san! You’re still a punk, Kimura-kun!_” and laughed loudly.
“_What was that about, Kimura-san?_” Markus asked as they got back in the car.
“_Ahhh… I might have stolen a few bowls in my younger days from old man Komamura-san. He never called the cops or anything. Just made me and my brother clean his shop when I did. He’s a good man, and I try to pay him back every time I come, but he never takes it. So, in return, I try to drive as much business to him that I can,_” Atsuki replied, somewhat embarrassed.
“_I see. Well, it is good that you are trying to correct your past wrongs. I’d say the old man has a fondness for you. You’re a good man, Kimura-san,_” Markus stated with finality.
“_Bah. I’m still a punk kid. I’m just lucky it was Komamura-san that I stole from. Other ramen-ya are said to be tied with our local gangs. I don’t ever want to step out of line again, so I stick with Komamura-san. He’s safe. The last time a gang tried to tangle with him, he sent them all running. He may not look like it now, but the old man used to be quite the fighter back in his younger days,_” Atsuki explained.
Markus nodded and yawned. He checked his phone. Good grief, it was already two in the morning. “_Kimura-san. It’s late, and I’ve been on a long flight. Plus I’ve my meeting tomorrow. I’m sorry to ask, but could you please take me back to my room?_” he asked, his face a mask of apology.
“_What? How late?_” Atsuki checked his watch, and saw the time. “_Oh shit. I should get home, too. My shift starts in four hours,_” Atsuki explained, heading back to Markus’ room.
The pair rode in relative silence for the remarkably shorter trip back. Markus exited the vehicle and turned to Atsuki. “_Thank you, Kimura-san. If tonight and tomorrow are all I have in Japan, You’ve made it all the richer. Be safe getting home,_” he said with a smile and a polite bow.
“_Let me know how it goes, yeah? I’ll send you a message so you have my number. Good luck, my friend!_” he called back, and drove off into the night.
Markus stumbled to his door, and went in. Shucking his shoes at the genkan, he stripped and fell into the surprisingly soft bed. He was asleep in moments.
Waking to his alarm always sucked. Markus reached out blindly and grabbed his phone. Shit, it was already noon. He checked his messages and saw a few from an unknown number. It was Atsuki. Apparently, he and his brother would be over in roughly forty-five minutes.
That gave Markus just enough time to shower and get dressed for his meeting. Hopefully. He scrambled for the shower, and got himself clean and dressed in thirty minutes. He was sitting there on the bed when he heard a knock at the door.
Opening the door, he saw the smiling face of Atsuki and a younger, much more shy man behind him.
“_Barton-san! I have brought my brother, Gen-kun and he will tame that mop on your face! Ha!_” Atsuki said jovially as he and his brother bowed respectfully and entered the small room.
“_I am so sorry, Barton-san. I speak no English. Forgive me,_” Gen said sorrowfully.
“_Think nothing of it, my friend. I understand you well enough. I only hope my Japanese is good enough for you,_” Markus replied with a soft smile on his face.
Gen nodded with a smile and set his bags down. He certainly carried a lot of product with him. Markus watched with interest as he set various amber-colored glass vials down, along with a bottle of yellowish oil. He also set out several tins with screw-on tops. Most interestingly, he had what looked like a spice shaker filled with coffee beans.
“_So, what do you have here?_” Markus asked the younger man.
“_I have various scented oils that I will blend for you to bring out your manly scent. It will be tailored specifically to you, Barton-san. No other may wear it and smell quite so nice,_” Gen explained.
“_Neat. So what is in the metal boxes?_”
“_Different lightly scented balms to help moisturize your “mop” of a beard. How do you want it styled?_” he asked.
“_I was thinking of a pair of braids, honestly. Or a single, thicker one if you think that would look better. I also brought some jewelry to put in it,_” Markus explained.
“_Show me._”
Markus fished in his bag and pulled out a small bag with a few metal beads in it. They all had different designs. Gen gently took it and selected a few after some moments of thought. \ \ “_These are what you will wear. Now be quiet. I need you still, calm and quiet for the next few minutes,_” Gen said to Markus.
Markus nodded, closing his eyes as Gen closed his own, centering himself.
“_I will drive you, Barton-san. You need not worry with me around!_”
“_Quiet, brother. I am concentrating._”
“Sorry.”
Gen sat still for several more minutes, then opened his eyes. He leaned in, sniffing Markus by his neck, behind his ears and even the top of his head. He lifted his arms and smelled his armpits, his back and his chest. Markus was certain he’d just been violated, but was too intrigued to say anything.
Wordlessly, Gen turned to his vials and opened three of them. Inhaling the aroma of the coffee first, he sniffed each vial in turn. Shaking his head, he closed one, and selected another. This pattern went on with periodic sniffs from the coffee until Gen had three vials in front of him. Taking an empty vial from another bag, he opened it. Wordlessly he dripped several droplets of the various scented oils into the empty vial, then filled it from the bottle of yellowish oil. He shook this concoction up, thoroughly mixing the blend.
Next, he opened each of the tins in turn, sniffing them and rejecting a few. In the end, he had two left, and proffered them to Markus.
“_Choose._”
Markus, confused, took first one, and then the other, smelling each. “_What does the oil smell like? Am I to pick one that compliments it?_” he asked.
“_No. They both do that. Which do you prefer?_” was the answer he received.
“_This one, then,_” Markus said, handing one to Gen.
Gen took the small tin and set it aside, and then concentrated on Markus’ beard. It was freshly cleaned and slightly damp. Gen took a towel and gently dried Markus’ face. Afterwards, he generously applied the oil to his hands and massaged it into Markus’ face. Markus recoiled slightly from the unusual scent, then gave a nod of approval.
Gen grinned. His gift had yet to let him down. He oiled his clients face, then massaged the balm into his hair. Such a lovely beard. Long, thick and curly. Just as it should be. Once his beard was tamed, he put a pair of braids in it, each hanging down from roughly the corners of his mouth. Once he was satisfied with their length and evenness, he slipped a barrel bead over each braid. They had a curious symbol on them, but his favorite were the pair of oni skulls the man had, that he slipped on under the barrel beads. These were surely the secret to his amazing looks and presence. To have a pair of oni looking after you was especially noteworthy. In his mind, at least.
Finishing his work, he handed Markus a mirror. Markus examined himself and smiled. “_This is perfect, my friend. Let’s get the final ties on them, and we can head out!_” Markus exclaimed as he looked at his phone. It was nearing three-thirty. How had two hours elapsed already?
Gen finished the work in front of him and nodded. “_I can do no more. I would surely be treading upon God’s territory if I tried. Get him to his meeting, Brother. I have a good feeling!_” Gen exclaimed.
Markus thanked the younger man and pressed a few bills into his hand. He rose, slipping on his new boots, and together with Atsuki, walked out to the car.
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After sitting, Markus realized that he would need to exchange his money for the local currency. He rushed back into the airport and found an exchange service. He traded nearly a thousand dollars for yen, receiving nearly 140 thousand yen, in bills and coins. Thanking the trader, he rushed back outside to wait for his bus.
As he was waiting, he spied a taxi nearby and wondered if it would be better. He walked over and knocked on the window.
“I’m sorry, excuse me? How much to get to Rikyuan Kyoto Nishikyogoku?”
The driver blinked twice and looked at this rude American. “Nine thousand. No less.”
Markus slid into the back seat and fished out ten thousand yen, and handed it to the driver.
“Thank you, sir. Today is my first day in your country, and I would just like to get to my room and sleep. I have an important meeting tomorrow, and I’d like to be as refreshed as possible,” While Markus’ Japanese wasn’t great, it was passable, and better than most Americans.
The driver grunted an acknowledgement, and off they sped into the night. Along the way, Markus watched the lit streets for anything recognizable. Finding little beyond 7-11 gas stations and some obvious convenience stores, he quizzed the driver.
“Excuse me? Where can I find a stylist? I’d like to look my best for my meeting.”
“A stylist? For hair? You’re as bald as a baby. Or do you mean that mop on your face?”
Markus looked sharply at the rearview mirror, only to see the smiling, mirthful eyes of the driver. He laughed softly. “Yes, friend. I’d like to get this unruly mop tamed. Do you have any suggestions?”
The driver was quiet for a moment, apparently thinking. “One moment, please. I have to call him,” he said as he pulled out a cell phone and dialed a number.
“Yes? Gen-kun? You want to make some money? Got an American here. Needs his beard taken care of professionally. Says he has an important business meeting tomorrow. Where? I dunno. Let me ask.” The driver spoke up to Markus. “Hey, man. Where did you say this meeting was?”
“Uh…A place called Kitcho Arashiyama, I think. Why?”
The driver let out a low whistle. “Kitcho, huh? They must have some money. Hey! This offer will be amazing, man! You better take it. Not everyone can afford to eat there.”
“Really? I think we are just meeting for tea, though. I don’t even know this man. Just got a letter out of the blue, and here I am. A lonely gaijin here in your amazingly beautiful country for the first, and probably last, time. I hope I’ve not been tricked. The gods have been merciless toward me lately,” Markus replied.
“Gen-kun? You hear all that? He’s going to Kitcho. Do him up right, and we might be taken care of, too! Okay. Okay. I’ll tell him. Bye, bro.”
Markus laughed softly. “I’ll tell you what. If I land this job, or whatever it’s going to be, and it’s lucrative enough, I’ll call on you and your brother to drive me around and make sure I am as presentable as possible, and I’ll make sure you two are taken care of. How does that sound?”
The driver looked up in the mirror, awe evident on his face. “You would do that? A lowly cab driver like me and a hair stylist like my brother?” he asked quietly.
“Absolutely. I reward kindness with kindness my friend. I don’t have much right now, but if this goes well enough, I will take care of you and your brother.”
“You have a deal, American. What is your name?”
“Your English is pretty good. I am Markus Barton. And you are?”
“I am glad to meet you, Barton-san. I am Kimura Atsuki.”
“Thank you, Kimura-san.”
Atsuki grunted an acknowledgement and refocused on the road. In a few more minutes, they arrived at the small inn.
Markus got out, retrieving his bag from the back seat. Atsuki exited as well, taking a good look at this surprisingly kind, yet rude, American.
He saw a man, heavily built, with a bushy black beard that reached down to the middle of his chest. Broad shoulders that wouldn’t be out of place for a farmhand, but decidedly odd for a salaryman. A slightly too small t-shirt clung to his body, showing a bit of a beer belly, and most interesting of all, he seemed to be wearing a black skirt.
“Barton-san? Why do you wear a woman’s skirt?”
“Hmm? Oh this? This isn’t a woman’s skirt. It’s called a kilt. It comes from the people of the British Isles. My family comes from that area, and once I tried it on, I was hooked. No pants for me ever again.”
“Huh. You learn something new every day.”
“Here is my contact information, Kimura-san. I will call on you should I take the offer. By the way, do you know of any decent restaurants or noodle shops in the area? I’m hungry.”
Atsuki laughed loudly. “You were my last fare. I will wait, and then take my new friend out for dinner at a good place. Go. Check in, and I’ll see you back here.”
Markus smiled and nodded. He rushed inside and took care of business, being shown to a room on the ground floor. He deposited his bag inside, just past the genkan, locked the door, and returned to his new friend, hopping back in the taxi, to explore what Kyoto had to offer.
Atsuki took an appraising look at Markus. Nodding his head with a finality, he said, “I am taking you to a good ramen-ya. You say you are hungry, and I say you will eat. Let’s go!” He smiled and slapped the dashboard of his taxi, taking off into the night.
Atsuki and Markus chatted in a mish-mash of English and Japanese, getting to know each other as well as they could in the fifteen minute drive to the ramen-ya.
It turned out that Atsuki was recently divorced from his wife of four years and had no children. He and his brother, Gen, lived in a modest apartment not terribly far from the Rikyuan that Markus was staying at. He was an avid gamer, something of a shut-in, and had a collection of U.S coins.
“I am only missing the Arkansas (he pronounced the final ‘S’), and the Marysland state quarters for 2022. I have the other years already. They are in mint condition and sealed in special bags so that they do not tarnish. Pretty neat, huh?”
Markus gave him a lopsided grin. “Have you ever met another American, Kimura-san?” When Atsuki gave him a negative answer, Markus nodded. “Very well. I shall help you some. I’m not really into coin collecting, but I think it’s pretty neat that you are. You’re the only person I know who is, if I’m honest. The state names are pronounced like this: Arr-can-saw and Maryland. There isn’t an ‘s’ in Maryland. I know it seems like there should be, but there isn’t. I can’t really tell you why Arkansas is said the way that it is, though. I don’t think I have either of those two quarters on me, though. Let me look.”
Markus dug around in his left pocket, pulling out the change there. He shuffled through the coins, not expecting to find anything larger than a dime, but came across a quarter. He unlocked his phone, using the screen to illuminate his findings. It was a 2022 quarter, but it was Hawai’i, not either of the ones Atsuki needed.
“Nope. Just Hawai’i. Sorry, man.”
“Bah. Thank you for looking, though. You’re a good man. I appreciate it very much. Ah. We are here. It may be just a little hole in the wall, but it happens to be one of my favorites. I apologize for the traffic. We would be here in half the time, had it not been bad,” Atsuki said.
Markus smiled. “Fifteen minutes is a short drive where I’m from. Don’t worry about it. Let’s just enjoy some ramen, yeah?” he asked.
Atsuki nodded with a smile, and the pair walked in. Markus noticed that the shop was sparsely populated with people, and the gentleman behind the counter was relaxing with a book. Decidedly odd.
“Yo, Komamura-san! Two bowls of tonkatsu with lots of chashu for me and my new friend, Barton-san! Firm, please. Thank you.”
Komamura grunted a reply and set about making the requested ramen, and the pair sat at the counter. Atsuki ordered a beer for both of them, and the two chatted and ate for quite some time.
At least until the shop began to get busy. When Atsuki noticed the line beginning to form outside, he paid the bill and thanked the chef.
Komamura glared at Markus for a moment, his face devoid of expression. “Why did you bring a gaijin to my shop, punk?”
“This gaijin, my friend, has an interview tomorrow at Kitcho. He has promised to take care of my brother and I if he gets the job. Right, Barton-san?” Atsuki shot back.
“He is right, Komamura-san. If I do well, I will do what I can for the brothers. Kimura-san has been very helpful to me, and if his brother can tame this mop on my face, I’ll help him, too,” Markus said, gazing softly at the older man.
Komamura grunted a reply and returned to his customers. As the pair were leaving, he shouted “Good luck, Barton-san! You’re still a punk, Kimura-kun!” and laughed loudly.
“What was that about, Kimura-san?” Markus asked as they got back in the car.
“Ahhh… I might have stolen a few bowls in my younger days from old man Komamura-san. He never called the cops or anything. Just made me and my brother clean his shop when I did. He’s a good man, and I try to pay him back every time I come, but he never takes it. So, in return, I try to drive as much business to him that I can,” Atsuki replied, somewhat embarrassed.
“I see. Well, it is good that you are trying to correct your past wrongs. I’d say the old man has a fondness for you. You’re a good man, Kimura-san,” Markus stated with finality.
“Bah. I’m still a punk kid. I’m just lucky it was Komamura-san that I stole from. Other ramen-ya are said to be tied with our local gangs. I don’t ever want to step out of line again, so I stick with Komamura-san. He’s safe. The last time a gang tried to tangle with him, he sent them all running. He may not look like it now, but the old man used to be quite the fighter back in his younger days,” Atsuki explained.
Markus nodded and yawned. He checked his phone. Good grief, it was already two in the morning. “Kimura-san. It’s late, and I’ve been on a long flight. Plus I’ve my meeting tomorrow. I’m sorry to ask, but could you please take me back to my room?” he asked, his face a mask of apology.
“What? How late?” Atsuki checked his watch, and saw the time. “Oh shit. I should get home, too. My shift starts in four hours,” Atsuki explained, heading back to Markus’ room.
The pair rode in relative silence for the remarkably shorter trip back. Markus exited the vehicle and turned to Atsuki. “Thank you, Kimura-san. If tonight and tomorrow are all I have in Japan, You’ve made it all the richer. Be safe getting home,” he said with a smile and a polite bow.
“Let me know how it goes, yeah? I’ll send you a message so you have my number. Good luck, my friend!” he called back, and drove off into the night.
Markus stumbled to his door, and went in. Shucking his shoes at the genkan, he stripped and fell into the surprisingly soft bed. He was asleep in moments.
**********
Waking to his alarm always sucked. Markus reached out blindly and grabbed his phone. Shit, it was already noon. He checked his messages and saw a few from an unknown number. It was Atsuki. Apparently, he and his brother would be over in roughly forty-five minutes.
That gave Markus just enough time to shower and get dressed for his meeting. Hopefully. He scrambled for the shower, and got himself clean and dressed in thirty minutes. He was sitting there on the bed when he heard a knock at the door.
Opening the door, he saw the smiling face of Atsuki and a younger, much more shy man behind him.
“Barton-san! I have brought my brother, Gen-kun and he will tame that mop on your face! Ha!” Atsuki said jovially as he and his brother bowed respectfully and entered the small room.
“I am so sorry, Barton-san. I speak no English. Forgive me,” Gen said sorrowfully.
“Think nothing of it, my friend. I understand you well enough. I only hope my Japanese is good enough for you,” Markus replied with a soft smile on his face.
Gen nodded with a smile and set his bags down. He certainly carried a lot of product with him. Markus watched with interest as he set various amber-colored glass vials down, along with a bottle of yellowish oil. He also set out several tins with screw-on tops. Most interestingly, he had what looked like a spice shaker filled with coffee beans.
“So, what do you have here?” Markus asked the younger man.
“I have various scented oils that I will blend for you to bring out your manly scent. It will be tailored specifically to you, Barton-san. No other may wear it and smell quite so nice,” Gen explained.
“Neat. So what is in the metal boxes?”
“Different lightly scented balms to help moisturize your “mop” of a beard. How do you want it styled?” he asked.
“I was thinking of a pair of braids, honestly. Or a single, thicker one if you think that would look better. I also brought some jewelry to put in it,” Markus explained.
“Show me.”
Markus fished in his bag and pulled out a small bag with a few metal beads in it. They all had different designs. Gen gently took it and selected a few after some moments of thought. “These are what you will wear. Now be quiet. I need you still, calm and quiet for the next few minutes,” Gen said to Markus.
Markus nodded, closing his eyes as Gen closed his own, centering himself.
“I will drive you, Barton-san. You need not worry with me around!”
“Quiet, brother. I am concentrating.”
“Sorry.”
Gen sat still for several more minutes, then opened his eyes. He leaned in, sniffing Markus by his neck, behind his ears and even the top of his head. He lifted his arms and smelled his armpits, his back and his chest. Markus was certain he’d just been violated, but was too intrigued to say anything.
Wordlessly, Gen turned to his vials and opened three of them. Inhaling the aroma of the coffee first, he sniffed each vial in turn. Shaking his head, he closed one, and selected another. This pattern went on with periodic sniffs from the coffee until Gen had three vials in front of him. Taking an empty vial from another bag, he opened it. Wordlessly he dripped several droplets of the various scented oils into the empty vial, then filled it from the bottle of yellowish oil. He shook this concoction up, thoroughly mixing the blend.
Next, he opened each of the tins in turn, sniffing them and rejecting a few. In the end, he had two left, and proffered them to Markus.
“Choose.”
Markus, confused, took first one, and then the other, smelling each. “What does the oil smell like? Am I to pick one that compliments it?” he asked.
“No. They both do that. Which do you prefer?” was the answer he received.
“This one, then,” Markus said, handing one to Gen.
Gen took the small tin and set it aside, and then concentrated on Markus’ beard. It was freshly cleaned and slightly damp. Gen took a towel and gently dried Markus’ face. Afterwards, he generously applied the oil to his hands and massaged it into Markus’ face. Markus recoiled slightly from the unusual scent, then gave a nod of approval.
Gen grinned. His gift had yet to let him down. He oiled his clients face, then massaged the balm into his hair. Such a lovely beard. Long, thick and curly. Just as it should be. Once his beard was tamed, he put a pair of braids in it, each hanging down from roughly the corners of his mouth. Once he was satisfied with their length and evenness, he slipped a barrel bead over each braid. They had a curious symbol on them, but his favorite were the pair of oni skulls the man had, that he slipped on under the barrel beads. These were surely the secret to his amazing looks and presence. To have a pair of oni looking after you was especially noteworthy. In his mind, at least.
Finishing his work, he handed Markus a mirror. Markus examined himself and smiled. “This is perfect, my friend. Let’s get the final ties on them, and we can head out!” Markus exclaimed as he looked at his phone. It was nearing three-thirty. How had two hours elapsed already?
Gen finished the work in front of him and nodded. “I can do no more. I would surely be treading upon God’s territory if I tried. Get him to his meeting, Brother. I have a good feeling!” Gen exclaimed.
Markus thanked the younger man and pressed a few bills into his hand. He rose, slipping on his new boots, and together with Atsuki, walked out to the car.

ChocoPro 315: New Champs This weekend is a chaotic but important one for ChocoPro! In the first of two episodes, tonight we’ll see the stories of the championships igniting. Chie seeks to prove her championship worth against goblin & powerhouse, Sayaka desires revenge on Masa, and the new champs Choun & Shin take on Obi & Akki! Let’s Go, ChocoPro!
🍫 CLICK HERE FOR THE LINK! ChocoPro 315 🍫 Miya Yotsuba VS Chie Koishikawa VS Mei Suruga, Masa Takanashi VS Sayaka, Shin Suzuki & Choun Shiryu VS Sayaka Obihiro & Baliyan Akki. It airs TONIGHT at 11 pm EDT / 8 pm PDT (Tomorrow at 4 am BST, 12 pm JST). Live and Free on YouTube!
This link will be updated with a direct one when available

Don't forget to Adjust Your Volume, Wrestling is Loud!

Change the stage, escape the normal! ChocoPro is built different. Find out why wrestlers like it so much: Find a new home on the bleeding edge. (This is not your regular wrestling show.) Join us for this episode, or check out the back catalog of 17 wonderful Seasons on the Gatoh Move ChocoPro YouTube channel...260+ episodes with stories and pro-wrestling like you've never seen. New to the promotion? It features a roster of skilled veterans, rising stars, and wonderful guests fighting in the ChocoPro Arena: Ichigaya Chocolate Square. Subscribe for more content than just the live matches! (AEW Watch Alongs, Discussions, Interviews, Food Challenges, etc) Even if you can't catch it live, don't sweat it! It will still be available on the channel.

Three Way Match: Miya Yotsuba 🍀 VS Chie Koishikawa 🏵️ VS Mei Suruga 🍎

Energy Overload

Ichigaya’s Lucky Charm, Miya Yotsuba, is looking for a fight! The fan favorite student of the goblin is known for her mint-green gear and her overwhelming spirit. Miya brings a strength focused style that is surprisingly flashy (especially that Miya Hammer)! Our new powerhouse impressed at every task set before her, growing in skill and showing more raw talent with each outing. While she will need to deal with the goblin tactics of her teacher, she’ll also need to watch out for Challenger Chie’s fury! Good luck, Miya.
“Say Hello”, because Chie Koishikawa has arrived to dish out some of her signature speed chops! The Frantic Fencer is known for having "Too Much Energy" and an intense move set that compliments her boundless charisma. This time the standard bearer of the Fourth Generation is preparing for her Super Asia title match in the next episode! Will she be ready to prove to Hagane she is more than just “the protected”? ChocoPro’s orange geared knight will be giving her all to this last difficult quest before she takes on the Icy champ she knows all too well...
Mei Suruga is a vast sea of charisma. The Red Fairy of Ichigaya tends to convert new viewers into her “dummies” quite quickly, even the coldest heart finding it hard to resist her charm and explosive wrestling ability...despite her being such a Goblin most of the time! She will enjoy punishing her frequent tag partner and her student just as much as anyone else. Though she prefers tags and singles, triple threats are a rare tasty treat for her: Mei loves to get into dangerous situations to test herself, as is tradition for the Big Apple Girl!

Masa Takanashi 🍶

VS

Sayaka 👗

Drunken Violence

Drunken Monkey Masa Takanashi is ready for anything! The president of Gatoh Move is known for racking up wins as much as he does bar tabs, with a swagger and slick technique that will have you questioning just how tipsy he is! The Counter Fighter of ChocoPro baits his opponents into reversals and trickery that will have them staring at the lights or tapping out in quick fashion. He’s got a lot of tricks up his sleeve, but will he be able to handle overwhelming power once more? Takanashi had better keep up that fancy footwork or he’ll find himself hammered into oblivion!
“I'm gonna kill you! Yayyyyy!” While she has become infamous for her unsettling cheerfulness and grim quotes, “Smiling Violence” Sayaka is known more for her ungodly brutal striking power. Those explosion like forearms stagger even the toughest opponents in Ichigaya! Add in Sayaka’s pin point dropkicking ability and her growing talent in pins and submissions, and Masa might find that the rising Twitch star is just too much to handle. Don't forget, Sayaka hangs out around Minoru Suzuki and survives to tell the tale! After all, she’s “happy to beat someone”!

Shin Suzuki 🍙 & Choun Shiryu 🐉

VS

Sayaka Obihiro 💙 & Baliyan Akki ♠️

New Champs

An unfortunate twist of fate may have brought the “Utility Players” the belts, but Choun Shiryu & Shin Suzuki are the Asia Dream Tag Champs all the same! These two mesh well with just about any pairing, it makes sense that they sync together with machine precision. The Dragon of ChocoPro is a Wuxia hero (having done some of the most spectacular acts in Ichigaya) with his own fantastic flair! He is one of the most legitimate forces in the promotion. This Kung Fu master boasts a truly unique fighting style, pulling off action movie stunts you’ll not find elsewhere. His technically talented partner Shin is no slouch either! His warm personality and intense athleticism fit well with the general vibe of Ichigaya...and honestly, his knack for dealing with kids (as a proud father) comes in handy in this den of goblins and monsters! Shin’s strong grasp of fundamentals and Choun’s unorthodox approach combine to form an incredible pair of champions.
Another twist in this story: Sayaka Obihiro & Baliyan Akki are back on the same team! Any time we get more “Obi magic” on the screen, it is a good day. Her boundless charisma and eye catching maneuvers are some of the best in Ichigaya, it is always a pleasure to have her in a match. Between her heavy chops, throat thrusts, and her pin specialization, Obi is an all around danger in the ring (and the square). She'll be working with the Ace of the promotion, Baliyan Akki! Akki is a sight to see in Best Bros, but his energy is much more aggressive without Mei as his partner. The “Zephyr of Ichigaya” will need all of his arsenal (smooth transitions, combo striking, high flying, and even flash pins of his own) for this one, as these are two of his fated rivals from the past...who now hold the very belts he once proudly did! Fear not, because Akki defines quality in ChocoPro! The Ace will be looking for weakness in the new champs to exploit, because it won’t be too long until he holds a belt again...
Welcome to ChocoPro!
Come and see the wild creativity that produced Two of the Seven AEW Women's World Champions! (Both of which have appeared on ChocoPro!) You'll be wondering if you're seeing future champs, as well. ChocoPro is the Frontier of Pro Wrestling! Match after match of hard hitting, chaotic, fun bouts with a friendly online audience. We're quickly growing, and you're welcome to come along!
Here are some Frequently Asked Questions:

“What is this?”

ChocoPro is a free online promotion run by AEW's Emi Sakura, that takes place in the legendary Ichigaya Chocolate Square! It features a steady pace of live Episode releases, fan interaction, season long story arcs, and much more! A place where the turnbuckles are replaced with 14th floor windows, the ropes are often replaced with fans, unforgiving walls provide creative avenues for skills otherwise unthinkable, and you can take solace in knowing that the referees usually do nothing. While it might be a shocking change at first, the intensity and storytelling will leave you wanting more.

“Why are they fighting in ____?”

Short answer is that it is a cost effective, unique venue with a better availability schedule and allows the roster access for training. Emi Sakura has been using this place for a long time, and you might be surprised at some of the names that have used it (even outside of ChocoPro!). There are a few in-ring Episodes and Gatoh Move has in ring shows with crowds on the YouTube channel. Think of it like the Hart Dungeon but as a promotion, if that helps!

”What are the rules?”

While special match stipulations will usually be explained before the respective matches, the general rules of ChocoPro are simple. Pins only count on the Chocolate Mat and are not broken by the edge or Wall. Submissions usually only count on the Chocolate Mat, and ARE broken by reaching the edge or wall (sometimes ceiling...). Double pins and Double submissions are legal (and encouraged) in ChocoPro Tag matches, meaning cohesive teams will always have the advantage! Count Outs only exist if specified, since many matches stray from the comfort of the Chocolate Square into the streets (and the rest of the building itself!) There is a Time Limit for each bout (based on card placement and importance) and the Referee has discretion (even if they tend to do nothing most of the time!). Every Ref is different, some have different levels of bias and speed.

“How can I support them?”

Watch the show! Even if you can't see it live, the views matter! Like & Subscribe! You can join the Channel's membership for different tiers of perks...but also, you can buy single episode Sponsorship, Digital autographed photos, and more on their shop site as well as purchase shirts from PWTees (which features some great options!) If you'd like to donate or purchase a main wall sponsorship, you can via Paypal or Patreon...and don't forget to cheer for your favorites! (especially if you want to do a superchat!)

”How come there aren’t a lot of comments on the threads?”

ChocoPro is a YouTube show, meaning the discourse happens live...in the chat! Those that comment in the threads on here tend to do so in order to help new viewers that might be intimidated by the fast moving chat. Don’t be afraid to just dive in though, the community is friendly.

“Why are you posting this here? / Are you paid for this?”

This is a wrestling forum, and I'm trying to broaden the horizons of others! There is a lot of good wrestling out there...Plus growing the fan base means more people for me to joke around with! I honestly do believe this is what a lot of fans are looking for, even if it is too different for some! But different tastes are good. Variety is the spice of life. This is a labor of love (it really doesn't take that long) considering how much work they do to put on so many shows...for free!
If you have any other questions, feel free to ask me on here or on Twitter, where I’m probably still sick! ChocoPro is for everyone!
Season Tracker: We're 15/18 into Season 18! (Each Season is usually around 18 episodes)

I decided to post here. Seeing other people relate to my story and interacting with those who hurt oddly comforts me.
We met during the covid lockdowns being temporarily lifted. I had social issues my whole life and upon 20, felt like I can finally tackle online dating. He was a tourist, who visited my region with his best friend. And I matched the other guy. When he told me he's not alone, I took my own best friend on a double date. We locked eyes and ended up together at 4am kissing on the main square, ignoring the movement around us. His phone was stolen so I took him home, until we could contact his best friend through tinder.
I thought he was a one night stand, but he came back a month later. He stated that he felt something he has never felt before, I was good to him. I cared a lot. That should have been my warning that he is a person that needs to feel. We spent a week together, inseparable. I asked myself, so what now?
We promised eachother to see where this goes. We went abroad together yet single. Two weeks in a surprise lockdown. We spent it thinking we're already an old married couple. His car was broken into, I helped again. We parted, actually together.
And then it was us, every few months, trying to make as many memories together as we could. Christmas, New years, birthdays, Easter, holidays. We lived 20 hours apart, but we loved like it was nothing.
I was a person of words and knowledge. We never had an actual fight. He was a person of feelings and experiences and I never felt so excited about the future.
At some point I realised that he doesn't feel the same way about intimacy, as I do. I was patient until I wasn't. I was dreading the times I would have to repeat myself over and over and having it echo back to me, silencing me in the end.
I explained what I needed to feel love, excitement and fulfillment. I got a handful of half attempts, that I still cherished and loved him for. All of his pleading, I tried to work on immediately. Maybe it was resentment later on, I'm not sure.
I saw him struggle with some things. May I admit, my family is cold. I don't have the muscle memory in my heart to be warm. But I tried, I gave it my best. I still struggle with things that can hurt me, yet don't. He's an adrenaline person, I am calculated. It was hard to get him to understand how riding a bicycle isn't so easy to me. How swimming is something I haven't done for years. That driving a car with my health issues was something I'm not sure of. And I struggled with health a lot. Internat and external. He didn't understand, he thought I "just" have to ...
It was clear we had drifts in the way I was trying to organize the whole world into shapes, words, past and present and him just entering an empty space, looking for the meaning after.
I thought it's quirky. That we can be so different and still together.
At some point I started to experience the worst pain and my depression came back full force after 4 years. Starting my master's degree in a different city, no job, no friends and too far away to even consider travel – I simply gave up. Maybe I did before, looking back. The excited person he knew, so many hobbies and such a drive to open up, she started to feel overwhelmed again. Claustrophobic in his grandma's house in the middle of nowhere. No drivers license and no bike skills to just go on her own. No friends to randomly visit. Shut down, staring at a bright screen for some source of entertainment. He never liked screens. It's as if the world was still able to function analogue to him. Yet I was the one appearing on the screen over and over, when my presence was lacking and the bed was cold.
The depression took over my head, the last half a year of us was me trying to let him know what I need, promising that it's not forever. I knew I'd get a hold of things again, just like I did before. Yet the bright screens turned into doctors and popculture and city life and all the things he was not one with. We both felt left out of eachother's ideal lives. And the lack of physical affirmation on my part probably solidified his feelings based personality.
I did not know whether he felt it. I stopped saying it. I stopped acting it. I stopped just being around. I was still there, active, organised, me. But it's as if I was in a bubble, unable to be touched. And he loved touch so much.
On the last day I got a call. "I wanted to tell you that for some time now I haven't felt it. And I cheated"
He never told me what he felt, he kept it to the last day. He did not want my guidance in intimacy, he was content just doing it like he always did. He did not like my bright screens, only seeing the withdrawn figure on his bed (and with no passion for conversation, psychology and psychiatry – an actual hatred), he just couldn't find the meaning for it. Even if my words gave it.
I still can't wrap my head around the cheating. I knew he had a lot of female friends and I accepted his need for physical expression of affection as normal. We had one fight about crossing such boundaries, but he ridiculed it. "I don't want to say it but... I told you so" was not what he wanted to hear. I was told that it helped him see, that he didn't feel anything for me anymore. That he found passion in someone else and stood affirmed that it was the reason he needs to go.
I can't justify it like that. I know what respect is. I know what dignity is. But I still grieve the memories, the places and people. The very core of my past three years. I gave it my best and I tried. The grief extends to my family, my friends, everyone who saw us as one. A part of me died off.
Remember how we said we will see where this goes? We gave it a shot and we missed.