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My EBF 10mo still feeds 2-3 times per night on most nights. I have tried sleep training and am trying to get him to settle without these feeds, but he seems to be genuinely hungry and will NOT go back to sleep without a feeding. He is 99th percentile for height, so maybe that's why.
The problem is that I would like to start weaning him at 12 months. If he doesn't give up these night feeds in the next two months, what am I supposed to do at night? Should I give him water or cows milk? Something else? Any advice from parents that have been in a similar situation would be greatly appreciated. TYIA!

No game today, so let's remember a forgotten Yankee: Jackie Jensen
Jackie Jensen, "The Golden Boy", was a superstar athlete in the 1940s who seemed destined for greatness as the heir to Joe DiMaggio... only to be supplanted by a different golden boy, the great Mickey Mantle.
Jensen would eventually live up to the hype, but with the Red Sox -- but his career prematurely because, as baseball expanded to the west coast, his fear of flying made road games unbearable!
The Yankees between 1947 and 1964 were utterly dominant, winning 15 pennants and 10 World Series. And it wasn't just the major league team that was successful. The Yankees of this era were loaded up and down the system, from Rookie ball to their two Triple-A teams!
With such a loaded major league roster, the Yankees had many talented players stuck either on the end of the bench or in the minors who would eventually find an opportunity with other teams, including Bob Cerv, Vic Power, Gus Triandos, Lew Burdette, Jerry Lumpe, Bob Porterfield, and Bob Keegan, who would all be All-Stars with other teams. Clint Courtney would be the 1952 A.L. Rookie of the Year runner-up after the Yankees traded him to the Browns, and Bill Virdon was the 1955 N.L. Rookie of the Year with the Cardinals (and then Yankee manager from 1974 to 1975!).
But the most talented player who just couldn't find the playing time in New York was Jack Eugene Jensen, born March 9, 1927, in San Francisco. His parents divorced when he was 5, and he grew up poor, his mother working six days a week, 12 hours a day. Jensen said the family moved 16 times between kindergarten and eighth grade -- "every time the rent came due."
After serving in the U.S. Navy during World War II, Jensen went to the University of California in 1946 on the G.I. Bill. There he became one of the most famous college players in the country, leading Cal to the Rose Bowl. In 1947, he was the starting fullback as well as the team's top defensive back, and in 1948, he rushed for 1,000 yards and was an All-American.
He also was a tremendous two-way baseball player, pitching and hitting for the Golden Bears in 1947 as the won the very first College World Series, beating a Yale team that had George H.W. Bush playing first base. In 1949, he was an All-American in baseball, too.
His blond hair, good looks, and athletic accomplishments earned him the nickname "The Golden Boy."
Halfway through his junior year, Jensen left Berkeley to turn pro. Jensen would later say he couldn't risk playing a career-ending injury playing for free while teams -- baseball and football -- were trying to sign him to big-money contracts.

"There was a money tree growing in my backyard. Why shouldn't I pluck off the dollars when I wanted to?"

Jensen considered a number of offers, including from the Yankees, before signing a three-year, $75,000 contract with the Oakland Oaks of the Pacific Coast League. Jensen said he thought he'd face better competition in the Pacific Coast League, the top minor league of the era, than he would at the bottom of the Yankee farm system. He was right about it being more of a challenge -- he hit an unimpressive .261/.317/.394 in 510 plate appearances with the Oaks.
At the end of the year, the Oaks sold his contract (and that of Billy Martin, another Northern California kid) to the Yankees.
That same year, Jensen married his high school sweetheart, Zoe Ann Olsen, an Olympic diver. (By age 18, she had won 14 national diving championships and a silver medal in the 1948 Olympics.) "Together they looked like a Nordic god and goddess," Sports Illustrated reported. Nicknamed "the sweethearts of sports," they were the Dansby Swanson and Mallory Pugh of their era. More than 1,000 people attended their wedding.
Jensen would start the 1950 season not in the minors but in the Bronx. He joined the Yankees in a time of flux. They though they'd won the 1949 World Series, the Yankees knew they had to make some changes, with 35-year-old Joe DiMaggio nearing the end of his career. And their heir apparent was not Mickey Mantle -- at the time an 18-year-old shortstop playing in the Class C league, the equivalent of A-ball today -- but the 23-year-old Jensen.
But Jensen disappointed, hitting just .171/.247/.300 in 70 at-bats, and only starting in 13 games. Watching from the bench most of the season, Jensen would later lament the lost year of development, saying he'd have been better off playing every day in the Pacific Coast League.
The Yankees won the pennant for a second straight year, and in the World Series he once again was left on the bench. His only action was as a pinch runner in Game 3 as the Yankees swept the Phillies. That "Moonlight Graham" appearance would be his only taste of the post-season in an 11-year career.
The following year would be DiMaggio's last, and Mantle's first. Jensen began the year as the Yankees' starting left fielder and proved he belonged, hitting .296/.371/.509 through the end of July... and then, shockingly, was demoted to Triple-A and replaced with previously forgotten Yankee Bob Cerv.
I can see why they called up Cerv -- the University of Nebraska stand-out was tearing up Triple-A, leading the American Association in batting average (.349), home runs (26), triples (21), RBIs (101), and total bases (261) -- but why demote Jensen, who had a 140 OPS+ in the majors? Maybe the Yankees felt the brash 23-year-old needed to be taken down a peg. In any event, Cerv hit just .214/.333/.250 in August and was sent back to Triple-A, but Jensen also was left down there. He hit .263/.344/.469 and was recalled after the Triple-A season ended, only getting into three games (he went 3-for-9).
Mantle, too, had started the season with the Yankees, and after hitting .260/.341/.423 through the middle of July, was sent down to Triple-A. But he hit .361/.445/.651 in 166 at-bats, and unlike Jensen was back in the bigs by August 24. He would play pretty much every game the rest of the season, hitting .284/.370/.495 in 95 at-bats.
The torch had clearly been passed -- Jensen was no longer the heir apparent to DiMaggio. In the World Series that year, Mantle was the starting right fielder, and Jensen wasn't even on the post-season roster.
Jensen was so disappointed with how the Yankees had treated him in 1951 that he talked to the San Francisco 49ers about switching to pro football, but ultimately decided to stick with baseball.
Never shy about what he said to reporters, Jensen told The Sporting News on October 24, 1951:

"I felt so badly about the treatment that I received from the Yankees that, although I was in New York at the end of the season, I didn't feel like sticking around to even watch the club play in any of the World's Series games."
"I do not feel the Yankees were justified in sending me to the minor leagues. When I was shipped to Kansas City, I was doing as good a job as any Yankee outfielder and better than some of them. I was hitting .296, which was ten points better than Hank Bauer and 30 points better than Joe DiMaggio, Gene Woodling and Mickey Mantle. Yet Casey Stengel didn't give me the chance I felt I deserved."

Despite blasting his manager in the press, Jensen was still the property of the Yankees. That off-season, teams were circling, hoping to pry away the talented but disgruntled outfielder. There were newspaper reports of offers from the St. Louis Browns, the Detroit Tigers, the Philadelphia Athletics, the Washington Senators, the Cleveland Indians, and the Boston Red Sox -- with one rumor being Ted Williams to the Bronx in exchange for Jensen and several other players. (A Red Sox scout called the rumored deal "a lot of hogwash.")
Sportswriters spent the off-season speculating whether DiMaggio would retire, and if he did, whether Jensen or Mantle would take over as the center fielder, as there were still concerns that Mantle, who had hurt his knee in the 1951 World Series, wouldn't be fully recovered by the start of the season.
On Opening Day, April 16, 1952, it was Jackie Jensen in center and Mickey Mantle in right. Jensen went 0-for-5 with a GIDP; Mantle, 3-for-4 with a double, a walk, and a stolen base! Seven games into the season, Jensen was 2-for-17 (.118) and found himself on the bench. He'd never play for the Yankees again. On May 3, the Golden Boy was traded to the Washington Senators along with Spec Shea, Jerry Snyder, and Archie Wilson in exchange for Irv Noren and Tom Upton.
In two years with the Senators, Jensen hit an impressive .276/.359/.407 (112 OPS+), but the team was terrible, and Jensen wasn't happy. Still just 26 years old, he later said he had almost quit after the 1953 season... particularly after a harrowing flight to Japan for a series of exhibition games with a squad of All-Stars that included Yankees Yogi Berra, Eddie Lopat, and Billy Martin. That experience gave Jensen a lifelong fear of flying, a phobia that became so intense eventually he could only fly with the help of sleeping pills... and a hypnotist!
He might have quit if not for the trade on December 9, 1953, that sent him to the Boston Red Sox for pitcher Mickey McDermott and outfielder Tom Umphlett. He was homesick, he hated flying, and he now had two little kids at home. Red Sox general manager Joe Cronin convinced Jensen to come to the Red Sox, telling him that Fenway Park was tailor made for his swing. Cronin was right: Jensen was a career .279/.369/.460 hitter, but .298/.400/.514 at Fenway.
It was in Boston that Jensen finally lived up to the hype, becoming a two-time All-Star and winning the A.L. MVP Award in 1958 and a Gold Glove in 1959. During his seven seasons in Boston, he hit .282/.374/.478 in 4,519 plate appearances. In his MVP season, Jensen hit .286/.396/.535 (148 OPS+) with 31 doubles, 35 home runs, and a league-leading 122 RBIs. During his peak with the Red Sox, 1954 to 1959, Jensen's average season was .285/.378/.490 (127 OPS+) with 28 doubles, 26 home runs, 111 RBIs, 14 stolen bases, and 3.6 bWAR. During those six seasons, no one in the American League -- not Mickey Mantle, not Ted Williams, not Al Kaline -- had more runs batted in than Jackie Jensen.
Of course, Mantle was the far better player -- even in Jensen's MVP season, Mantle had more runs, hits, home runs, walks, and a 188 OPS+ -- but Jensen's 127 OPS+ between 1954 and 1959 would have been an upgrade over the aging Hank Bauer's 110 OPS+ in right or the left field merry-go-round of Norm Siebern (113 OPS+), Irv Noren (107 OPS+), Enos Slaughter (103 OPS+), and previously forgotten Yankee Hector Lopez (101 OPS+). Casey Stengel would later say the Jensen trade was the worst one the Yankees had made while he was manager.
Despite his success, Jensen was sometimes booed by the Boston fans, just as they sometimes booed Ted Williams. There even was an article in Sport magazine, "What Do They Want From Jackie Jensen?", taking Red Sox fans to task for their unreasonably high demands from the Golden Boy. In 1956, in a game at Fenway Park against the Yankees, the hometown fans were razzing Jensen so much that teammates had to restrain him from going into the stands after a fan. Later that same game, Williams misplayed a wind-blown fly ball from Mantle, and the fans booed lustily. The very next play, Williams made a leaping catch at the scoreboard to rob Yogi Berra of a double. But Williams, still furious, spit into the crowd. He was later fined $5,000.
And Jackie was unhappy to be away from home. He and Zoe Ann had bought a house near Lake Tahoe, where they could both ski and golf year-round, as well as hit the casinos. They also had a home in Oakland, and a restaurant there, and each year Jensen hosted a pro-am golf tournament. But the marriage was struggling. Zoe Ann, once nationally known for her Olympic exploits, was frustrated to be a stay-at-home mom in the shadow of her famous husband, and Jackie became angry if she engaged in her favorite outdoor hobbies, suspecting there were men around.
Jensen's fear of flying also had become even more intense. Sometimes he was so drugged up that he had to be carried on and off the plane, fueling rumors that he was a drunk. Other times he took trains or even drove while his teammates flew.
Once again Jensen was talking about retirement, and in Spring Training 1957, the Red Sox allowed him to train with the San Francisco Seals, Boston's Triple-A team, rather than having to go to Florida. But he was still miserable. That year, he told Sports Illustrated:

“In baseball you get to the point where you don’t think you have a family. It just looks like I’m not built for this life like some ballplayers. You are always away from home and you’re lonesome, and as soon as I can, I intend to get out.”

The 32-year-old Jensen announced his retirement after the 1959 season, and he spent 1960 home with Zoe Ann and their children and running his restaurant. But he returned in 1961. After hitting just .130 in April, Jensen took a train from Detroit home to Reno, determined to quit once again. After a week away, he rejoined the team and had six hits in his next 10 at-bats. By the end of the season he was at .263/.350/.392, and this time he quit for good.
After leaving baseball, Jensen invested in real estate and a golf course, but lost most of his money. He then got a job working for a Lake Tahoe casino, was a national spokesman for Camel cigarettes, Wonder Bread, and Gillette, and even tried selling cars. Ironically, Jackie found himself on the road almost as much as he had been as a ballplayer. In 1963, he and Zoe Ann divorced, remarried, and then divorced again.
In 1967, Jensen became a TV sportscaster, married his producer Katharine Cortesi, and eventually teamed up with Keith Jackson calling college football games for ABC and a college baseball coach, first at the University of Nevada-Reno and then at the University of California, and he managed the Red Sox team in the New York Penn League in 1970. In 1977, Jackie and Katharine moved to Virginia and started a Christmas tree farm while he coached baseball at a military academy. About five years later, on July 14, 1982, he died of a heart attack at age 55.
You Don't Know Jack(ie):

• How good would Jackie Jensen have been as a Yankee? Maybe not great. He was a career .279/.369/.460 hitter, but just .238/.326/.398 at Yankee Stadium, which -- especially in that era -- was famously death on right-handed batters. Fenway Park was much more to his liking!
  
• Born in San Francisco in 1927, it's no surprise Jensen's favorite player as a kid was Joe DiMaggio, who made his debut with the San Francisco Seals when Jensen was a 5 years old. When Jensen made his major league debut, on April 18, 1950, DiMaggio went 3-for-6 with a triple in a 15-10 win over the Red Sox. Two weeks later, on May 3, Jensen made his first start, playing left field and batting second, and DiMaggio was in center and batting fourth.
  
• Jensen wore #36 at Cal. When he came up with the Yankees, he was first issued #40, then switched to #27, and finally to #25. (With the Senators, he wore #8, then #4; in Boston, he first wore #30 but primarily wore #4.) Currently, #40 is worn by Luis Severino. Other famous 40's include Chien-Ming Wang (2005-2009), Andy Hawkins (1989-1991), and Lindy McDaniel (1968-1973). #27 has been worn by Giancarlo Stanton since 2018; prior to him, it was worn by Austin Romine (2016-2017). It also was the number worn by Bob Wickman (1993-1996), Butch Wynegar (1982-1986), and Woodie Held (1954-1957). Gleyber Torres has worn #25 since 2018; it also was worn by Mark Teixeira (2009-2016), Jason Giambi (2002-2008), Joe Girardi (1996-1999), Jim Abbott (1993-1994), Tommy John (1979-1989), and Joe Pepitone (1962-1969).
  
• Jensen is one of six major leaguers to graduate from Oakland High School, but the only Yankee. Cal has sent 83 players to the majors, including twenty Yankees -- most notably, early 1990s pitcher Chuck Cary, 1930s infielder Lyn Lary, and 1990 A.L. ROY runner-up Kevin Maas.
  
• The Yankees during spring training in 1951 tinkered with the idea of using Jensen into a pitcher. Jensen had been a star pitcher at Cal, including pitching in the 1947 College World Series, and had pitched in a winter league that off-season. But he was bombed in a handful of spring training innings -- while crushing as a hitter -- and the Yankees decided to leave him in the outfield.
  
• College teammates said Jensen wasn't afraid of flying at Cal. His second wife Katharine said the phobia came from a near-miss experience on a flight early in his baseball career -- he looked out the window and saw another plane coming straight at him! The two planes managed to avoid each other, but he was never comfortable on a plane again.
  
• Billy Martin, who also had grown up in Northern California and was Jensen's teammate on both the Oakland Oaks and the Yankees, was merciless when it came to teasing Jensen about his fear of flying. In 1953, on a flight from Okinawa to Honshu to play a series of exhibition games in Japan, the plane ran into a bad storm and was bouncing pretty hard. Jensen, who wouldn't get on a plane without the help of tranquilizers, was blissfully sleeping through the turbulence. Martin found a lifejacket and put it on, then stood over Jensen and shouted "We're going down!"
  
• Arthur Ellen, a hypnotist that Jensen had used to try to cure his fear of flying, believed Jackie wasn't aerophobic at all. It was really a fear of losing his family. "Subconsciously, it developed as a good reason to leave the Red Sox and go home," the hypnotist said.
  
• Jensen is featured prominently in Norman Rockwell's famous 1957 painting, The Rookie. Jensen is the one seated on the bench tying his shoe in the middle of the painting. Standing behind him is Ted Williams, and sitting on the bench next to him is pitcher Frank Sullivan (#18). Wearing the catcher's mitt in the foreground is Sammy White, and the player with his hand over his mouth to the far right is Billy Goodman. Jensen, Sullivan, and White had gone to Rockwell's studio in Massachusetts to pose for the painting; the images of Williams and Goodman were based on photos. The shirtless player was one of Rockwell's assistants, and "the rookie" holding the suitcase was a local high school student!
  
• Boston sportswriters named Jensen the team's MVP in 1954, when he hit .276/.359/.472 with 25 home runs and 117 RBIs. I guess they were tired of giving the award to Ted Williams, who hit .345/.513/.635 that year, albeit in just 117 games as he had broken his collarbone in spring training. Williams didn't qualify for the batting title that year because he had only 386 at-bats... mostly due to his league-leading 136 walks. The rule was subsequently changed from at-bats to plate appearances.
  
• After Jensen was acquired by the Washington Senators, manager Bucky Harris -- who managed the Yankees when they won the 1947 World Series -- pulled him aside and told him he was the right fielder and he'd hit third. "No pep talk, no nothing, but he made it sound like I was the right fielder and third place hitter for a long time to come," Jensen later recalled. "It made me feel good." The 1950s Senators had a number of ex-Yankees and several of them told reporters that Harris was a much more low-key, hands-off manager than Casey Stengel, and Jensen agreed. "With Stengel it was always 'watch for that curve ball' or 'watch for that change up'," Jensen said. "Bucky leaves you on your own up there." But Jensen would later say Stengel was the smartest manager he'd ever had.
  
• Stengel obliquely mentioned Jensen in his famously long, rambling testimony before the Senate Anti-Trust and Monopoly Subcommittee on July 8, 1958. Asked about legislation that would exempt baseball from federal anti-trust laws, Stengel said about 7,000 words without really saying anything. The hearing was held the day after the All-Star Game -- the Stengel-managed A.L. All-Stars won, 4-3 -- and in the American League starting lineup were Jensen and two other ex-Yankees, Bob Cerv and Gus Triandos. Stengel was asked if the Yankees were going to continue to "monopolize" the World Series, and his confusing answer: "Well, I will tell you. I got a little concerned yesterday in the first three innings when I saw the three players I had gotten rid of [Jensen, Cerv, and Triandos] and I said when I lost nine what am I going to do? And when I had a couple of my players I thought so great of that did not do so good up to the sixth inning I was more confused but I finally had to go and call on a young man in Baltimore that we don't own and the Yankees don't own him and he is doing pretty well and I would actually have to to tell you that we are more the Greta Garbo-type now from success. We are being hated. I mean from the ownership and all we are being hated. Every sport that gets too great or one individual -- but if we made twenty-seven cents and it pays to have a winner at home why would you have a good winner in your park if you were an owner? That is the result of baseball. An owner gets most of the money at home, and it is up to him and his staff to do better or they ought to be discharged." After befuddling the committee with answers like that for 45 minutes, Stengel was excused and Mickey Mantle called upon. His opening statement: "My views are just about the same as Casey's."
  
• Casey Stengel later said Jensen plus Spec Shea, Jerry Snyder, and Archie Wilson to the Senators for Irv Noren and Tom Upton was the worst trade the Yankees made during his tenure. But in reality it was pretty much a wash for the Yankees. Jensen, in two seasons, would be worth 4.9 bWAR for the Senators before being traded. Shea, a right-handed pitcher who had been an All-Star with the Yankees as a rookie, pitched four years in Washington and was worth 2.9 bWAR. Snyder was a good-glove, no-hit infielder worth -0.1 bWAR in seven seasons with the Senators. (You must have a really good glove to last seven seasons with a 55 OPS+!) Wilson, at one point seen as a good prospect but now a 28-year-old minor league journeyman, only played 26 games in Washington before being traded. In exchange, the Yankees received the 27-year-old Irv Noren, an outfieldefirst baseman who played five years in New York and was an All-Star in 1954; he was worth 7.9 bWAR, making the trade essentially even by bWAR. (The other player the Yankees received, minor league infielder Tom Upton, never made it back to the bigs.) Prior to the 1957 season, Noren was traded to the Kansas City Athletics as part of a monster 13-player trade that included Clete Boyer, third baseman of the early 1960s dynasty!
  
• The two players Washington got from Boston for Jensen, Mickey McDermott and Tom Upton, were both future Yankees. McDermott was a left-handed pitcher whose father, Maurice McDermott, had played in the minors with Lou Gehrig. Mickey was just 25 years old at the time of the trade but had been in the majors for six seasons, going 48-34 with a 3.80 ERA (114 ERA+). In two years with the Senators, McDermott went 17-25 (but with a 3.58 ERA), then prior to the 1957 season was traded to the Yankees as part of a seven-player deal; he went 2-6 with a 4.24 ERA as a swingman, and closed out the Game 2 win in the 1956 World Series. After that one season in New York, he was part of the trade with the A's that brought back Clete Boyer.
  
• Umphlett, a 22-year-old infielder, was traded back to the Red Sox in 1955, and then the Red Sox traded him to the Yankees in 1962 for infielder Billy Gardner. He would spend 1962 and 1963 in Triple-A for the Yankees, then ended his career in the minors with the Minnesota Twins -- the team that had been the Senators until 1961.
  
• In 1956, the anthology television show Cavalcade of America had an episode called The Jackie Jensen Story. Jackie had a cameo as the adult version of himself, but the 30-minute episode was focused on Jackie's teenage years and the influence of his middle high school coach, a man named Ralph Kerchum who became a father figure. The coach was played by Ross Elliott, a Bronx native whose most memorable role might have been as the director in the Vitameatavegamin episode of I Love Lucy.
  
• Jensen's MVP in 1958 broke a string of four straight MVP awards for Yankees -- Yogi Berra in 1954 and 1955 followed by Mickey Mantle in 1956 and 1957. Nellie Fox of the White Sox won it in 1959, and then the Yankees won it four years in a row again -- Roger Maris in 1960 and 1961, Mantle in 1962, and Elston Howard in 1963. Then a long drought -- the next Yankee to win it would be Thurman Munson in 1976.
  
• Going by bWAR, Mantle should have won it a third straight year in 1958 -- his 8.7 bWAR led the league, followed by Frank Lary at 6.7 and Al Kaline at 6.5. Jensen's 4.9 was 10th that year. Of course, they didn't have bWAR back then!
  
• Jackie won a Gold Glove in 1959; it was just the third year of the award's existence, or he might have won more. "Right field in Boston is a bitch, the sun field, and few play it well," Ted Williams said. "Jackie Jensen was the best I saw at it." Jensen was renowned for his throwing arm -- he twice led the league in assists, and twice led the league in double plays as an outfielder. One Yankee scout said he had the best arm he'd seen since previously forgotten Yankee Bob Meusel, usually said to have the best cannon in baseball history until Roberto Clemente came along.
  
• Jensen was well known for his brashness, especially compared to Mantle's aw shucks attitude. Mantle, asked if he thought he could beat out Jensen to replace DiMaggio in center field, humbly replied that there were three positions in the outfield and he hoped to win any one of them. Jensen, on the other hand, vowed he'd "out-run, out-hit, and out-throw" Mantle, an arrogant answer that didn't go over well with teammates. Joe DiMaggio, asked what he thought of the duel for his old job, quipped that Mantle was "out-quoting" Jensen.
  
• When Mantle was asked what he thought about Jensen's quote, he replied: "I don't know what to make of that guy." Jensen would later say he was misquoted, but reports of his cockiness would follow him throughout his Yankee years. Later in life, Jensen said people mistook his shyness and anxiety for arrogance and rudeness.
  
• According to Sports Illustrated, Jensen is the only player to have played in the East-West football game, the Rose Bowl, the World Series, and the Major League All-Star Game. I'll take their word for it!
  
• As a freshman at Cal, the first time Jensen touched the ball -- on a punt return -- he ran it back for a 56-yard touchdown. Cal quarterback Charles Erb said they'd never seen anything like it. "He was all over the field, dodging and leaping over guys. The rest of us just stood there on the sidelines with our mouths open. Finally somebody said, 'Who in the hell is that guy?' "
  
• Jensen is one of two "forgotten" Yankees in the College Football Hall of Fame -- the other is 1960s catcher Jake Gibbs. (Other Yankees in the College Football Hall of Fame include John Elway, who was in the Yankee minor league system before joining the Denver Broncos, and Deion Sanders, who was on the Yankees in 1989 and 1990.) Jensen also is a member of the Cal Hall of Fame, the Bay Area Sports Hall of Fame, and... ugh... the Boston Red Sox Hall of Fame.
  
• Despite his speed -- Jensen led the league in triples in 1956 and in stolen bases in 1954, and was in the top five in stolen bases in six seasons -- Jackie also was prone to grounding into double plays, leading the league in 1954, 1956, and 1957. His 32 GIDPs in 1954 was the major league record until Boston's Jim Rice hit into 36 in 1984, which is still the single-season record. Rice also had 35 in 1985. Jensen's 32 is tied for third with four others. The most by a Yankee? Dave Winfield with 30 in 1983, which is tied for 14th.
  
• Jensen lost most of his baseball earnings through a series of bad investments. His ex-wife, former Olympian Zoe Ann, later became a blackjack dealer in Reno to pay the bills.
  
• Jensen had four appearances on the popular show Home Run Derby, and set a record for most home runs in one match when he defeated Ernie Banks, 14-11, in Episode 24. The 25 combined home runs also was a record. He took on Mickey Mantle in Episode 3, with Mantle winning, 9-2, then defeated Rocky Colavito, 3-2, in Episode 25. He rematched against Mantle in Episode 26, with Mantle winning again, 13-10. Jensen set another record in that contest when he became the only player to hit four home runs in a row, and then a fifth home run in a row. That episode was supposed to be the season one finale, but it turned out to be the last episode of the series: The show's host and producer, Mark Scott, died of a heart attack at age 45, shortly after the last episode aired, and two months later the show's 64-year-old director Benjamin Stoloff also died. Rather than replacing them, the show was cancelled.
  
• Jensen's last game came against the Yankees, on October 1st, 1961, at Yankee Stadium. He appeared as a pinch hitter and popped out to shortstop Tony Kubek. In the 4th inning of that game, Roger Maris hit his 61st home run, breaking Babe Ruth's single-season record!
  
• Jackie and Zoe Ann had two sons, Jon and Jay, and a daughter, Jan. Jay's son, Tucker Jensen, was a pitcher in the Blue Jays farm system in 2011 and 2012.
  

In 1958, Jensen told Sports Illustrated that the biggest thrill of his career wasn't being an All-American or an All-Star, it wasn't winning an MVP or a World Series. "The biggest is having played in the same outfield with both DiMaggio and Williams."

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It's officially summer, so hid inside doing a pub quiz instead!
Where: The Mitre, Greenwich (291 Greenwich High Rd, London, SE10 8NA)
When: 4th June 2023
Info to know: Table is booked from 7.15pm but quiz starts at 8pm. Its a mix of picture, music, mystery voices and general knowledge.
No super geniuses expected, just people who want to take part and have fun. £2.50 via card is paid to the quiz host to take part and prizes can be won for 1st and 2nd place. I'll be there from 7.15pm.
Any questions, pm me and I'll answer the best I can. We have a WhatsApp group you can join at the pub during the quiz itself.

Hi, psych people!
So, I will be having a reporting this month in our Projective Test class, and I'll have to discuss the Group Personality Projective Test (GPPT) by Cassel & Kahn. One of the requirements is to get ahold of a copy of this test.
According to my brief researching about the test, it is a 90-item consisting of stick figure drawings with multiple choice answers. May I ask for help from you regarding this need?
Thank you in advance!

I've visited Pai a couple of times and loved it. I've been training Muay Thai a bit in my current location and am seriously considering applying for the Non-Immigrant Education Visa, and living in Pai for at least a few months.
So far I've only spent a couple of weeks there, so I have some questions for anyone who's lived there.
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Pai is pretty remote so, is ordering stuff online that can't be found locally fairly straightforward and cheap? That includes food (I don't expect the local supermarkets to have more niche items) or things like electronics etc.
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How is the "expat scene"? I think I only met one or two Westerners who weren't just passing through. That's not a huge problem for me, and I know some locals speak English quite well, but it would also be a nice bonus if I could make Western friends who aren't going to leave in a week.
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How bad is the rain at this time of year? Is it typically sunny in the morning, pours down in the afternoon and then clears up in the evening? Does it cause awful flooding?
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Thanks in advance :)

Hi, I'm currently learning Godot, and also very new to programming and game programming in general.
So my problem is, I'm making a ship and using dot vector to get facing direction, what should happen is when the target is in front of the ship, it will move forward, otherwise it will move backward, but that didn't happen when the ship went past the target, why?
Here's the code in case you're wondering,

extends Node2D signal target_in_front signal target_in_back signal target_in_right signal target_in_left var ship = null var target_position : Vector2 var direction : Vector2 var distance : float func _enter_tree(): ship = get_parent() target_position = ship.get_global_position() target_in_front.connect(ship.moving_forward) target_in_back.connect(ship.moving_backward) target_in_right.connect(ship.turning_clockwise) target_in_left.connect(ship.turning_counterclockwise) func _unhandled_input(event): if event is InputEvent: if event.is_action_pressed("confirm_button"): target_position = get_global_mouse_position() func _process(delta): monitor_target_position() func monitor_target_position(): direction = get_direction() distance = get_distance() var facing_direction = direction.dot(ship.transform.x) var sideway_direction = direction.dot(ship.transform.y) if distance > 0: if facing_direction > 0: target_in_front.emit() if facing_direction < 0: target_in_back.emit() # if sideway_direction > 0: # target_in_right.emit() # if sideway_direction < 0: # target_in_left.emit() else: return return facing_direction func get_direction(): return ship.get_global_position().direction_to(target_position) func get_distance(): return ship.get_global_position().distance_to(target_position) 

I hope, you could help me figured out the problem, because I'm stuck, Thank you.

Hi there, my name's Emmett (28M) recently my relationship with Samuel (23M) ended in a horrible way, after 2 years together he neglected to tell me he's a Jehovah's witness, needless to say he always knew we couldn't be together as long as he's a part of that cult, I was very happy during the time I spent with him, I felt loved and appreciated, also I learned a lot of new skills in order to help him grow and improve, we even started a business together, everything was going amazing. Then after Valentine's day this year his behavior towards me started to dramatically change, he no longer answered my calls, he was distant and usually nowhere to be found. One fateful day his cousin sent me pictures of him with some girl from his church being very affectionate to each other. I felt devastated, so I decided to confront him and all he said was that they were friends, I stupidly believed him, only for him to tell me a couple of weeks later that he started to have feelings for said girl and that his family was very happy that he was dating a girl from the cult. I felt used and abandoned, I felt I wasn't enough or worthy of anything... I tried my best to act like an adult, but anger got the best of me so I contacted the girl and told her that he had been seeing both of us at the same time, she was understandably upset, but ended up forgiving him... After he told her and everyone on his cult that I had made up all of our messages, pictures, videos and social media posts using AI. Currently we don't speak or have any kind of contact, however I can't help but wishing all the worst on him, I know I did my fair share of bad things like dating someone who's six years younger than me and contacting his new partner to tell her what he had done, but I guess I have to learn to live with that shame...

Hi everyone,
Currently I'm working in a company and we are using nginx for our load balancers and we are doing all redirections and location definitions through these load balancers. The problem is over the years (+10y) the number of locations and redirections is so high that managing them is really hard, and each time to troubleshoot a thing takes lot of time.
Is there any option, or any tools that we can identify overlaps on this locations and redirections?
What is the best practice on keeping these files clean for future updates and troubleshooting? (keeping each subpath in different dir / or separate base on product and endpoints / or separate redirection and locations)
Did you had such a headaches and fix them?

This is really really silly but im currently sick right now (stomach bug) and i have a really bad past with stomach pain and all that so I’m struggling a shit ton right now with recovery. Not just physically either. My mental health is horrible, i havent slept any more than 7 hours for the past three days and i spend most of that time awake spiraling. I am really scared of being sick. I have horrible anxiety and additionally very afraid of throwing up— so, mix those all together and you get someone stuck in the bathroom for hours trembling with anxiety and holding back any vomit. Something happened in 2021 where I experienced something similar to this, and I straight up developed an eating disorder. I did really good afterwards because I was able to beat it.
I don’t want to be stuck in the past. I’m trying so hard to believe in myself and believe that this time it will be different. Its just even worse now that I’m majorly sleep deprived and stressed out. Not to mention I haven’t eaten much..
I don’t know what to do. I need to keep trying and fighting but I’m so scared. My anxiety is out of control these days and any small thing makes me spiral. I’m really tired and I’m scared I’m being an inconvenience to my parents being this way. They are trying their best to understand but the bad thing Is that i dont even understand myself. I don’t understand why I’m so scared. I don’t know why my anxious habits are coming back. I don’t want them to come back.
I’m just scared. I shouldn’t be but I am. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what I need to feel better. I feel so alone.

“The interview went well, the main reason you were unsuccessful was that in comparison to the candidates that were chosen, your answers to the questions didn't meet the criteria of the position as much, in terms of the types of events we run. We appreciate the enthusiasm and hope you apply again in the future.”
So I got rejected because they felt I couldn’t run the events? They said you can learn the games and run events once you are know the games. I felt I answered the question well too. Feels like these jobs even part time want you to beg at their feet just to get the job.

In a break-even scenario off a $560M global box office (meaning a net profit of $71M before participations and residuals are accounted for), we’re told that Little Mermaid‘s global film revenues would amount to $547M against its combined production, global theatrical and home entertainment marketing expenses of $476M. The pic’s revenues broken down include $267M in global theatrical film rentals, $100M net in domestic pay/free TV and what Disney pays itself to put the movie on Disney+, $100M in global home entertainment (DVD, digital), and $80M in international TV and streaming.

Applying information from the OW to this one.

Revenue	$	Comments
Domestic BO	286	(55% DOM rental rate assumption)
INT BO	270	(40% INT rentals)
WW BO	560
Theatrical Rentals	267
Domestic TV/Streaming("SVOD")	100
INT TV/SVOD	80
Home Video	100
TOTAL REVENUE	547
Cost
Production	250
P&A	140
Home marketing P&A	80	implied. This is just way too high so either production budget or marketing are larger than initially reported or perhaps it includes some additional misc charges (e.g. interest and overhead)
Costs less participations/residuals	476
Participations	?
Residuals	?
Participations + Residuals	76
Net P/L
Net P/L	0

I'm looking for an eyebrow gel (mascara) that lightens my dark brown hair to match dyed hair, such as light brown or ashy blond.
Most eyebrow gels in blond shades are meant for blond haired people who would want to slightly darken their eyebrows to make them more visible, at least in my understanding. So blond shades are just less darkening than the darker shades of the same product and still will not lighten...
Please let me know if you know any that would lighten! Kosas brow gels look slightly milky and opaque so they might actually deliver the color in the bottle but I cannot tell from the reviews I saw.
I love Japanese brow mascara like KISS ME Heavy Rotation Coloring Eyebrow, though I cannot easily get them here in the UK (hence I wanna know Western alternatives). KISS ME ones are opaque milky formula with white-ish base so they cover the hair completely and make it appear lighter. Also, they dry down completely but looks fluffy and only meltdown with hot water like film-type mascaras. Made in an Asian country it makes sense that they work well for dark hair and the idea is that they will match dyed (lightened) hair. The only problem besides hard to get here is that most colors are warm toned (so not for platinum blond or ashy blond).
Love to hear your recommendations.

Many of the posts here are people who freshly left a relationship or are currently on their uncoupling journey, this post is for those of us who have left their pwBPD at least 2 years ago.
I’ve gone no contact, no social media, no checking anything for about 15 months now. Despite wanting to see what she’s up to for months now I’ve resisted the urge.
Regardless, I can’t seem to get over the past. I am haunted by her. Her memory, smell, laugh, touch, the little loving things she did consume me. I’m in a weird space where I both love her greatly and feel a strong pain by what she did, and a strong shame and patheticness at loving someone so much who could not even care to treat me like a human despite many tries to be amicable. The duality of the contrasting feelings is confusing and painful and often put me in a depression when I reflect on it.
It’s been 3 years. Still haven’t fell in love with anyone else. Even though I’ve dated and been intimate with other women I struggle a lot with dating and self worth. I feel empty inside and sex feels mostly not very pleasurable.
I still don’t feel good enough to be with someone long term, perhaps ever. My views on relationships and connections have been changed forever. I will never marry anyone and wish to die alone. I want to look forward but I feel so alone. My dating life has been awful and everytime I feel low I fantasize on how great things would have been if we were together.
Still in my head about her. I get flash backs of the happy moments of our relationship. Still have dreams about her. I go from idealizing the great moments of the relationship to reminding myself of her behavior during the break up, which multiple times lead me to the brink of killing myself. Almost died, still have health problems from lack of eating and sleeping, lost my job, lost everything. It got really bad. Mentally, still not fully recovered.
Took me 18 months after the break up to be normal on the outside. She would contact me and it would put me back in a fugue. Sometimes she would call me attempting to “grey rock me” by being very stiff and business like while also hurling accusations of cheating and other a false allegations at me.
About a year ago she called and I didn’t answer. I often wonder what she wanted to say but whatever it was it probably would have made me feel awful.
I go from idealizing our relationship. To feeling sorry for her and trying to forgive her. To being angry at her cruelty. To feeling resent at how I was treated. To feeling regret at the life we could have had. To feeling shame at being such a pathetic pushover that I would still be attached to someone who treated me so awfully. Always cycling between these feelings.
I often wonder what she’s doing. I think about her sleeping with another man and feel great pain.
And despite making new memories and having new experiences my brain seems inexplicably to attach all sorts sensory experiences to her. It’s like my brain is a broken record that is stuck on loving her, every once in a while I have to go and “correct” the glitches back to remind myself how awfully she behaved towards me, how she manipulated me in the end and how she betrayed me. I feel like my brain is just so stuck.
One quote that I read here that I wanted to share that always helped was “the poison is not the antidote”
I repeat to this to myself during times where I miss her until it sticks. By remembering her I am drinking the poison. It helps sometimes and unlocks the “epiphany” again
Another thing I do is I come back here and read the stories on this sub, which almost word for word resonate with all her behaviors(isn’t it weird how consistently they all seem to act???).
It unlocks the epiphany again and shake myself out of her trance.
I realize how I was manipulated by reading people’s experiences here and it clicks back to me that yes, she did have bpd and she was shitty and that yes I was abused, and that yes, I was gaslighted and split on.
I come back here too this sub every few months because I need to read these stories and get reminded. So thank you guys.

Тhе mоrning оf mоst rеsidents of Еаstеrn Еurоре begins thе sаmе way - watсhing thе news whilе drinking a hot, invigоrаting drink. Thеsе tеn minutеs of informаtiоn and соffee not only mаkе it роssible tо finаllу wаkе up and nаvigatе уourself in rеаlitу, but also to dеtеrminе the mооd оf the dау - this is hоw the humаn рsуchе works.
Оn the mоrning оf Junе 1, thе nеws fееd оnce аgаin showеd picturеs оf frеsh destructiоn in Kуiv аnd threе соrрsеs - а 9-yеаr-old girl, hеr 34-yеar-old mоthеr аnd anоthеr 33-уеar-оld wоmаn! In addition, 12 Куiv rеsidеnts werе seriоusly injurеd, оne оf thеm is а girl whо is сurrеntlу in thе hospitаl. Тhe оminоus symbоlism аnd суniсism оf thе situаtiоn is that thе murdеr of thе child осcurred оn thе night оf June 1 - Сhildren's Dаy (whiсh was estаblished just аftеr thе Sесond Wоrld Wаr in 1949, in thе hoрe thаt the сhildren оf thе рlanеt wоuld nеvеr agаin suffеr in wаrs)!
Аt night, tеn Iskander missilеs оf vаriоus modifiсatiоns (thrее cruisе аnd sеvеn bаllistiс) wеre dirеctеd аt thе сарitаl оf Ukrainе, which wеrе supроsed tо hit сivilian аnd сritiсаl infrаstructurе оbjeсts. Аir defеnsе forсеs shоt down аll missilеs, hоwеver, thеir frаgments fell оn residеntial buildings, а сhildren's сliniс, а kindеrgаrten аnd оther buildings.
In genеral, during thе 15 mоnths оf thе lаrgе-sсаlе wаr in Ukrаine, thе dеaths оf 484 children were dоcumentеd. Аlthough, it is diffiсult tо gеt аn аcсuratе dаtа in thе frоnt-linе zоnе duе tо the оngоing hоstilitiеs. Аlsо, 992 саses of сhildrеn's injuriеs and mutilatiоns wеrе сonfirmed - mаnу smаll сhildrеn were left withоut limbs and hаve оthеr terriblе injuriеs.
Whаt is hарpеning tо the pоpulatiоn, including сhildrеn, in thе territоries оf Ukrаinе oсcuрied bу Russiа is unknоwn. Аlrеаdу after thе dе-oссuраtiоn of а number оf distriсts (cаptured bу Russiаn trоoрs in thе spring of 2022), jоurnаlists and humаn rights dеfеndеrs leаrnеd abоut a network оf imрrоvisеd рrisоns аnd а torturе соnvеyor, grоundlеss killings оf civiliаns, mass саsеs оf rаре, including сhildren of both sexеs, tоtаl lооting аnd delibеrаtе ехtеrminаtion оf рets.
It shоuld bе emрhasized thаt thе lеgal bаsis fоr thе Intеrnational Сriminаl Соurt in Тhе Нaguе tо issuе аn arrеst wаrrаnt for V. Рutin and the сhildrеn's оmbudsmаn M. Lvоva-Веlоvа was рrеciselу thе forcеd rеmоvаl оf Ukrainiаn сhildrеn to Russia, thеir intentiоnal аdоptiоn in fostеr familiеs thrоughоut thе vаst tеrritоrу оf the Russiаn Fеdеratiоn, inсluding remotе rеgiоns, hоlding yоung Ukrаiniаns in “rе-еduсаtion cаmрs” (a соnveniеnt еuрhеmism fоr thе prоcess оf fоrced erаsurе оf natiоnаl idеntitу) аnd рsyсhоlоgiсаl and phуsicаl (inсluding sехuаl) viоlenсе аgainst mаnу Ukrainiаn сhildren.
Ассоrding tо рrеliminаrу data frоm thе authоritiеs оf Ukrаine (which аre cоnfirmеd bу US intеlligеncе аgenсies), thе Russiаn military deроrted аbоut 2.5 million Ukrаiniаn сitizens tо thе tеrritоrу of thе Russiаn Fedеrаtion. Ноw many оf thеm аrе сhildrеn - it is nоt knоwn fоr sure, this sаd figurе mаy reасh sеverаl hundrеds оf thоusands оf сhildrеn. Сurrеntlу, thе Ukrainiаn аuthоrities hаve аn offiсiаl dаtаbаsе оf 19,000 сhildren аbduсted bу the Russiаns. Howеvеr, it should be undеrstоod thаt this is a dаtаbasе with verifiеd pеrsonal informatiоn, соntаining surnаmе, first аnd middlе nаme, dаtе аnd рlаcе оf birth, рlacе оf rеsidеnсе in Ukrаinе, as wеll as data of рarеnts, guardiаns or educаtors (in the саsе оf оrрhаns). Оf cоursе, there is сurrеntlу nо suсh cоmрrеhеnsive informatiоn on аbsolutеlу аll сhildren tаken tо Russiа.
Оf cоurse, watсhing thе morning nеws аbоut thе murdеr оf a 9-yеar-оld girl frоm Кyiv dеtеrminеs a sаd mооd fоr thе wholе dау, аnd соffeе dоes nоt helр. Hоwevеr, if аlmоst 500 murdеred Ukrаiniаn childrеn саnnоt be brоught bасk tо lifе, thеn thе living bаbiеs аnd tеenаgеrs саn still bе protесtеd, аnd thе stоlеn littlе Ukrаiniаns сan bе returned to thеir hоmelаnd. Тhе оnly wоrking mеthоd fоr this is соnstаnt аnd соmprеhеnsive assistаnсе tо the Ukrаinian аrmу, first of all, it concеrns thе strengthеning оf аir defensе аnd thе rеplеnishment оf the militarу аviаtiоn flееt оf Ukraine with mоdеrn Westеrn fightеrs.

When I bought my phone a few years ago (Samsung Galaxy S21, 128GB) I either didn't notice or didn't mind it not having an SD card slot. I never had a problem with storage and I don't think I've ever exceeded a phone's storage limit.
Fast forward to last year, I had a baby so now I'm taking a LOT of pictures and videos. I've used up 92% of my storage, the biggest perpetrator is the videos, but I don't want to delete any. So for the first time in my life I've subscribed to Onedrive storage.
Anyway, I've heard horror stories of Google accounts getting banned and people losing their backed up things. I'd be so so upset if I lost these pictures of my baby, but I can't afford a new phone for a while and this phone doesn't have an SD card slot. So I'm backing up my pictures and I want to use the 'free up space' option on my phone. Does this only delete pics from the phone and not onedrive? And is there any risk at all of onedrive bugging out or acting up and deleting my photos forever?
Sorry for the long text, probably a lot of unnecessary info here, so TLDR is onedrive 100% safe to back up precious photos, and does 'free up space' on android only delete photos from the phone, and not the backed up ones on onedrive?

I still read the online edition, but wow, it seems like they do more reporting on food, what to eat, where to eat than real news. Sad.
I actually get more info here, though anecdotal. And real news from Asheville watchdog, bless them (though I'm over answer man Boyle).
Wlos is a joke, has been for years. I do think mountain Express is good. But no to the tribune papers. Daily planet is interesting. Any other sources for local news

I've had problems with alcohol since the day I turned 21, but I'm the kind of drunk where people have never really been able to tell. I could be shitfaced and not seem that different to anyone around me. So, it's never caused me any issues. But I've noticed that's not so much the case as I've gotten older. It does effect me differently now. I've slowly noticed myself acting more erratic and my motor functions more off.
Anyway, I was staying just a couple neighborhoods from some bars I was haunting, getting some extra strong drinks. Like an idiot, I drove home, when I could've walked. While attempting to park, I crunched into a very expensive vehicle, leaving a pretty significant dent. Panicked, I parked a couple blocks away, hoping to "hide" my vehicle.
Woke up at first light and headed to my car to get the paint smears washed off my bumper. My vehicle wasn't damaged at all. And... A note tucked under the wipers. My heart sank and jumped at the same time. "I'm busted. I deserve this," I thought to myself. Opened it, and it was just someone asking me not to park there again, for the school the bus. A sickening feeling of relief that somehow made the perspective even heavier.
When I got back from washing off the evidence, the car's owner was just discovering what happened, bending over, examining the damage with that, "WTF?" look on their face. I felt soooo bad. I died inside. Straight up walking inside crying, gagging, everything else.
That was my last drink. Stone cold sober since that incident. I reflected on how fucking lucky I've been my entire life that THAT'S the thing that did it. It could have been a DUI, a serious crash, killing someone, prison time. I'm sure there were infinite close calls that I blew off over the years. I don't plan to ever drink again. This incident, although small on the grand scheme of life, was the wakeup call I needed.
Fact is, being an alcoholic is a time bomb. Something really bad WILL happen at some point if you don't reel it in. It's unavoidable on a continued timeline.

Since it's last two weeks of a season with Golden Bullet GE, thought I could level my char a bit, before devs nerf the XP gains in next season. Leveling is super fast with the current GE.
Went from lvl 9500 something to 9802 in a week, played 6-7 hrs every day. And in all that playtime I had zero exotic drop. Zero, zilch, nil, nada, zip. How is that even possible?
Played every single activity on the map, didn't just chase convoys endlessly, threw in a few missions here and there. World difficulty is set to Heroic with 4 directives, didn't change settings for missions. At one point I decided to clear all level 4 CPs on map which netted me grand total of 2 (two) exotic components. Did around 20+ bounties, didn't even get one Chameleon. Was trying to play map parts and missions with either weapon or armor targeted loot, avoided targeted brand and gear sets. Not grinding for any specific exotic since I have them all. Talk about not respecting time invested.
Most of the exotics in the game are straight up trash, so why is drop rate so low? It's not like we're gonna break the game with Merciless or some trash like that.
Please spare me all those RNG one liners because I know, RNG gonna RNG. But still, exotic drop rate is insanely low. If the devs are expecting us to spend up to 20 exo components for miserable 1% upgrade on expertise, we need way higher drop rate of exotics. Hell, I would settle for exo components since drop rate at lvl 4 CP is, again, insanely low, at levels of statistical error. Why is drop rate of exo components at lvl 4 CPs almost non existent? It's not like we can farm them, we can open them once every 24 hours. So what's the problem? And no, I'm not going to that toxic waste dump called DZ to farm chests for exo components because they're always already open and I don't want to feed the gankers, thank you.