Mexican food lake in the hills

nothing brings me pleasure anymore, not working out, not being with my partner, not talking to people, not gaming, not food, nothing. life has never been worth living for me but i kept hoping it would get better eventually because everyone said it would. it never did. i never had any real support, people exclude me and dislike me. i don't have any plans for the future or passions. my hobbies feel like shit to do. i just don't have any feeling left in me. i'm just a walking fleshsack that pretends it can be a human being

I (29M) and him (30M) in a 4-Year Relationship I wrote this while being in “shock” and it turned more into a long rant of my situation. English isn't my first language.
I, a 29-year-old male, have been in a relationship with my partner (30M) for 4 years now. While not every moment in the past 4 years has been perfect, I mostly look back on our relationship with happy memories. Our personalities overlap and complement each other in a way that I believe is unique and unlikely to be experienced again in this lifetime. He has a great sense of humor, takes care of me, and I have no doubt that he genuinely loves me. However, I must acknowledge that the last year hasn't been entirely smooth.
Even before we met, he has been struggling with mental health problems, primarily depression. During his teenage years, it went mostly undiagnosed, and he only began his mental health journey in his early to mid-20s. He only revealed his depression to me about 4 months into our relationship. While I didn't expect it, I wasn't completely shocked either. I reassured him that although there is still a significant stigma associated with mental health struggles in our country and society, all I care about is his well-being. I encouraged him to treat his "illness" just like any other health condition, meaning that he needs to actively take care of his mental health. Although I understand that something like depression doesn't have a "cure" like a broken bone, it can be managed, therapeutically addressed, and even treated with medication.
When we first met, he was already attending 1-on-1 therapy sessions and group therapy. About one to two years into our relationship, he started seeing a new therapist for personal reasons. She suggested starting him on a "light" antidepressant (I'm not sure of the specific name) and, to put it simply, it made a significant positive impact on him. There were minor side effects like dry skin in the winter, but they were outweighed by the obvious improvements in his mood and mental health.
For example, prior to taking the medication, he would have what we called "breakdown" conversations about every other week. After coming home from work (which was his main stressor), he would cry and express how much he thought he was failing at his job and how useless he felt. However, after starting the medication, these conversations occurred only about once every two months, and they were much less emotionally intense. I always make an effort to listen to him and reassure him that he is a wonderful person, emphasizing that his self-perception is not how the rest of us see or perceive him.
When I sense that he needs to vent and "let it out," I lend an ear and provide support. And when I feel that he needs advice or an opinion on something, I try to offer my input while minimizing personal criticism. In other words, I don't tell him he did something wrong; instead, I attempt to show him how certain behaviors may benefit others at the expense of his own mental well-being, and I guide him on how to handle such situations in the future. As long as he remains consistent with his medication and therapy, he continues to thrive and grow both as an individual and as a partner in our relationship.
We had wonderful moments together, and I could see that he was learning to handle conflicts at work in a more detached and less critical manner. During this period, he also made the decision to pursue studies at a distance university because he couldn't envision himself working in his current field for the rest of his life. While he continued to work full-time, he now had an additional academic workload to manage. Initially, he seemed to be coping, but the added stress quickly started taking a toll on his mental health. That's when I took it upon myself to alleviate some of his burdens wherever possible. I began shouldering the majority of household tasks, such as cleaning, doing laundry, meal planning, grocery shopping, and cooking. Since I was working from home, I could tackle most of these tasks during my breaks or between meetings. However, this was the first time I started feeling more like a maid than a boyfriend. He was still stressed out by his studies and work, and I found myself juggling my own responsibilities of work, household chores, and the few hobbies I had left amidst the challenges of the pandemic. Things weren't ideal, but for the most part, we were working as a team.
However, things took a turn when he, upon the recommendation of his therapist and psychologist, decided to gradually reduce his medication. I expressed my concerns about the timing of this decision, but I assured him that I would support him regardless. After all, it was his body and his choice. He often mentioned how he disliked being reliant on medication just to function "normally" (his words, not mine). By saying this, he didn't mean that he was becoming "addicted" to his medication; rather, he simply wanted to live without them.
I told him that I understood his perspective, and as I had previously mentioned, I would stand by him. However, I also made it clear that if I observed him spiraling or struggling, I would express my concerns and recommend (not force) that he consider going back on his medication.
He began the process of weaning off his medication, but unfortunately, it didn't go well. Initially, he became more irritable (which was understandable) as his body and hormones struggled to cope without the additional support. I stopped any form of criticism or questioning, even about the smallest things (and by criticism, I don't mean saying things like "Please stop doing XX," but rather simple inquiries like "Did you fold the laundry?"), because he didn't respond well to it. After about four months of walking on eggshells around him, he experienced his most significant breakdown yet.
It started over something minor (he couldn't find his keys), but it escalated to him expressing thoughts of wanting to die. This was the first time he mentioned anything related to suicide, and it immediately alarmed me. He cried throughout the rest of the evening, and we concluded that although he still didn't want to resume taking his medication, he would discuss the mention of suicide (even if he claimed it wasn't meant seriously) with his therapist. Additionally, he decided to take a six-month "sabbatical" from his studies and requested to reduce his work hours from full-time to 80%, allowing more time for his studies and reducing overall stress. Although I wasn't thrilled about it, I appreciated that he had devised a comprehensive plan.
Things improved during his sabbatical, especially when he transitioned to working 80% one month before returning to his studies. I thought to myself, "Great, we worked something out as a team, and everything seems to be on track." Throughout this period, I continued to take on the majority of the day-to-day responsibilities so that he could make the most of this transitional time. However, during this period, his therapy provided by our healthcare system came to an end. In Europe, our healthcare provider covers therapy for a limited amount of time (typically around two years), and then there is a waiting period of nearly one and a half years before they will cover another two-year cycle. Of course, individuals are always free to pay for therapy themselves.
After he resumed his studies, things seemed to be okay for a while. He was making progress as expected and his work was manageable. However, after a few months, he experienced another major breakdown and expressed that he was more stressed than ever. He despised his job and his coworkers (who seemed to be a whole separate nightmare), and the pressure he put on himself with his studies led him to start smoking again, something he hadn't done since the early days of our relationship.
Once again, I listened to him and reassured him that we could face this together. I suggested that he could reduce his work hours even further, and I would take on more financial responsibilities (at this point, I had been advancing in my career and was earning more than him, despite working full-time). However, he wasn't keen on this idea. So, I proposed that he could always quit his job. Although he didn't outright reject the idea, he expressed concerns: first, his notice period ranged from four to six months, making it challenging to find a new job without quitting first, and second, he believed he wouldn't find a job in his current field with comparable pay (which I personally believed was complete nonsense).
I told him that if he didn't want to quit or reduce his work hours, he needed to change his attitude towards his job. He should only invest as much as he can, without overexerting himself in a place he despised, and instead invest more of his energy into his studies and finding a way out of that industry altogether. I also suggested that we could search for an independent therapist for him, but he dismissed the idea. So, for the next few months, this pattern repeated itself almost every other week. He would come home, have a breakdown, and I would listen and offer him options. He would say he would do better, but it would eventually repeat again.
He expressed his dislike for smoking and his desire to quit, and we discussed plans. His ultimate goal was to be smoke-free by his 30th birthday, which was only six months away (and we had a special celebration planned for his first week without smoking). However, he never made it to a full week without smoking, always giving in around day three. This cycle of disappointment, withdrawal, smoking again, and self-loathing repeated itself.
His breakdowns have become more frequent, occurring almost once a week. Even when he appears to be doing "okay," he is constantly feeling down. This continues for six months until he has a particularly severe breakdown and mentions suicide again, saying that he should just die. I immediately intervene and tell him that he is not doing well, urging him to make an emergency appointment with his psychiatrist and go back on his antidepressants. He agrees. During the appointment, the psychiatrist prescribes his antidepressant and questions why he is attempting to do everything at once—studies, high-stress work, and quitting smoking. The psychiatrist suggests that he starts taking the medication and postpones quitting smoking for a few months until he has had time to decompress and tries again when he is less stressed. He asks for my opinion, as he often does, particularly regarding quitting smoking. I always respond firmly, acknowledging that quitting any addiction is extremely challenging but emphasizing that it will only work if he truly wants to quit. If he does it to please me, it won't be successful, and he shouldn't place all his expectations of success or failure on me, as it is unfair.
I honestly tell him that I have personally witnessed the unhealthy cycle of withdrawal and relapse, which is detrimental to him, me, and our relationship. Although in theory, the psychologist's suggestion of postponing some problems until he resolves other stressors sounds reasonable, it also means that he needs to use the time when he is smoking to address the other problems. He can't simply assume that everything will magically improve in a few months when he quits smoking. He must actively work on the other issues during this time. He agrees and states that under these conditions, he will postpone his smoking cessation for three months and focus on his other problems, while still maintaining his ultimate goal of being smoke-free before his 30s.
Over the next few months, things improve slightly but are still far from good. It becomes evident to me that he hasn't truly utilized this time to address his work-related problems. Nonetheless, the daily ups and downs start to mellow out to some extent. The three months pass without any significant change, but he does make another attempt to quit smoking. The longest he is able to stay smoke-free is seven days, five of which were during a vacation. Apart from that, we are back to the constant mood swings fueled by withdrawal, often at my expense, or days of depression because of relapses.
During this entire journey, the mental load I had to carry started to accumulate and take a toll on me. Alongside some work-related issues, I found myself withdrawing more and more. On particularly difficult days, I tried to express my concerns, and while he would listen and show sympathy, the focus would quickly shift back to him. I began analyzing my own problems and seeking solutions. The only viable way out was to search for a new job and leave my current one.
I really liked the filed I ended up working in, but we were under new management and “learning on the Job” was our new CEOs mantra. By luck and some skill, I managed to land a job in my field at a dream company with great pay. I honestly didn't think I would get the job, but hey, reach for the stars I guess. He was very happy for me, as was I. He knew how much I disliked my old Job, and this is a rel opportunity for me. While he was very obviously happy for me, I could also see, that it kind of put a magnifying glass to his problems.
He started to question everything even more, and spouts of depression hit harder and longer. We were now back to weekly breakdowns, and the times when he was “happy” became rare and short. He now almost daily circles around the same three stressors for almost 3 months now. He is depressed by his work, he is depressed by his slow progress in his studies, he is depressed by his constant failure concerning his smoking habits. I comfort him every time and I try to help wherever I can. But between the constant breakdowns and his withdrawal fueled thin skin, I'm starting to lose sight of us. I don't feel like a boyfriend anymore and while I still love him, It's starting to feel more like a mother loves her child and less romantic love. Our sex life has dried up because I just don't see him this way right now. He recently started to say that he thinks he is a burden on our relationship and me during his breakdowns and while he is crying and saying that, I try to comfort him and reassure him that that's not true, but I'm starting to doubt my self. I don't want to lie to him in these moments and say that I think he is right, his mental health is taking a toll on our relationship. That feels like kicking someone at his lowest, but what am I supposed to do? I have mentioned more and more lately that I will pay for a therapist out of my own pocket. God knows I can afford it now, but he doesn't want that. He is weirdly focused on “doing it on his own” rather than “feeling finally better”. The weirdest part is that after his breakdowns are over, everything seems normal again. He apologizes for crying, and I tell him to stop apologizing when in reality I just want to shake him mad and yell at him to stop expecting change when he isn't changing anything and to take some accountability in his own life. In the last few days I started noticing that I get more and more angry at him for small things, and sometimes I catch my self thinking that the life we have talked about is slipping away from us.
A few days ago, he shared with me his realistic assessment of his studies and the timeline he had created for himself. It was then that I started to realize that the vision we had always talked about for our lives was becoming blurrier and less aligned. We had discussed getting married, buying a house, and potentially adopting children (depending on the laws in our country). He knew that I had hoped to make progress towards at least one of these goals before turning 30, which was only a couple of years away. He had always expressed the desire to complete his studies before any of these milestones could become a reality.
His new Bachelor's degree would potentially put him in a higher income bracket, opening up better options for purchasing a house. After completing his studies, he would be able to work in a field that brings him more joy, improving his mental health and making adoption a more viable option. He also believed that after finishing his studies, he would feel ready for marriage. Initially, I was mostly okay with this timeline, as his studies were expected to take up to four years, and we were 27 years old when he started his Bachelor's program.
However, when he recently informed me that he realistically anticipated completing his bachelor's degree around the end of 2025 or mid-2026, everything came into sharp focus. I realized that my goals would be indefinitely postponed. While I understand that this timeline may be realistic, his justifications seem hollow after the past four years we have experienced. Even if he finds an entry-level job in his new field, it would still take many years to reach a point where we could afford a house. This effectively pushes the timeline for our goals back by another 8 to 9 years.
After the last years I have a pretty good grasp what the main factors of his work related problems are and while some of them will definitely not follow him in this new field, some definitely will. So his mental health will maybe never allow for us to consider bringing kids in the mix.
And lastly the getting married part: I would be mid 30s when he will be done and feel “ready”.
Don't get me wrong, I know that you can’t plan on these things to happen according to your timeline, but now all three just feel so far away and some even impossible. I could easily accept only one of those 3 but none? I just feel lost right now. It fells like his mental wellbeing is completely tied up in whom I am as person and god forbid I come short in any aspect. This was a lot of venting and I honestly am looking forward to any advice. Right now i kind of feel numb and while I definitely don't want to break up with him, it's not like it hasn't crossed my mind lately.
Lastly: I have written a lot about the bad things in our relationship, and it is definitely biased in my favor, but it would be remiss of me if I didn't mention the good as well: He always shares his food with me when we eat out, because he knows I want to get a taste of his meal, even though he hates food sharing. He tells me he loves me almost daily. He gets up before me and gives me a kiss and says goodbye before he leaves while I'm still sleeping. He can talk about movies for hours and will always help me out when I forget a name of an actress and just start shouting movies she was in. He loves all animals (especially our fat cat). When we first started dating he couldn't cook to save his life, but when he saw that I enjoy cooking immensely he started to educate himself, so we can share this hobby of mine.
TL;DR: After being in a 4-year relationship with my partner, his struggle with mental health, including depression, has taken a toll on both of us. Despite my support, his medication changes, work stress, and smoking addiction have caused frequent breakdowns, strained our relationship, and made me question our future together.

Hey there, my name is Kevin and I’m 27 years old. I’m a Korean who’s I’m 5"10 and 190 pounds. I am strictly looking for a mono relationship.
I'm studying right now to take a test to get into nursing. Right now I work as a full time pharmacy tech. When I have time for myself, I either watch videos(I watch basically all genre of shows and movies. Marvel, 1899, Stranger Things, kdrama, Disney and the list goes on), play games(Play on PC, if you'd like to play then shoot me a message. I play OW2, LoL, WoW, Apex Legends), go outside for a walk, or hang out with my friends. Cooking is a big thing for me so you know that oppa will cook you a lot of good food. Right now I am working on getting skinnier so I am doing some work outs and it's working. I am a physical and gifting type of lover. I like to hold hands, hold my partner in my arms, give forehead kisses, nuzzle my nose against my partners, give kisses, hugs, spanks when they're bent over. Giving gifts to my partner too when I feel she deserves it.
For me, a key for a healthy relationship is when both partners are able to communicate. I'd like for us to be able to speak up if anything is bothering us. You'll have rules, tasks, structure, and discipline. The rules will be made around what my submissive wants to fix. My submissive should know that I will give them my attention when ever I can. As my submissive, you aren't just my submissive, you are my partner, my bestfriend, my lover. As we grow together whether it be close or long distance, we will be able to meet with each other at times and even more later on. I've been into BDSM for a good 7-8 years and DDLG for about 3 years. Intimacy is a beautiful part of a relationship in my opinion which is why I like to balance out between being non-sexual and sexual in the relationship. As we grow a stronger bond together and a genuine relationship, we'll be able to explore more of the kink and life style together. We'll be able to see what works and what don't, making our relationship more spicier along the way. When we aren't doing anything sexual, we'd be doing: watching movies and shows, cooking together, sleeping on the same call together and eventually on the same bed together. Again, you aren't just my submissive, you are my partner, my lover and my best friend.
As a long distance, I'd like to communicate at least everyday with texting. With videos calls, we can use discord and watch videos together every other day. I expect us to have at least one or two video sessions a week where I command what you do over the video call. This is only when my submissive is ready to of course, this will never be rushed like any part of the relationship.
As a Dominant, I am strict but can be soft at times. I am experienced in this lifestyle and open minded. I am goofy (Strict when needed), loving, patient caring, understanding, reliable, loyal and will be there for my partner through the highs and lows. Making my submissive comfortable and feel safe is my top priority. My goal is to guide my submissive to be shaped to what I see fit. I carry a love for my submissive for who they are and for what they will become with my guidance because they are my prized possession, someone that I helped create. I will never force or ask my submissive to submit to me, that is given to me when I deserve it. When discipline is needed, it will be used to put my submissive in her place. When I say to get on all fours, I expect you to go down on all fours and I shall do what I see fit. I will reward you for doing so, saying, "What a good little slut(or kitten you are based on if your limit is degrading) you are" and giving you pleasure. After a long day at work, when I say to get on your knees and suck my cock, I expect you to go on your knees on command and pleasure my cock. Of course as a reward for doing so I'd eat out your pussy, making you cum for me. When I say to hold your cum in, I expect you to try your hardest to hold it in. And when I compound my cock into your pussy, giving you no mercy, I will reward you for being a good cum dumpster by slamming my cock in as deep as possible before making you take every last drop of cum inside as I slowly pull out(Only if you're into creampie of course). Aftercare will always be given since it is essential.
Kinks:

• BDSM
• CNC (Maybe)
• Cock warming
• Creampie
• Cunnilingus
• Dominance
• Degrading
• Orgasm denial
• Praise Pay
• Ropes, gags, collars, bounds
• Sadist
• Spanking

Limits:

• Beastiality
• Blood play
• Diapers
• Incest
• Leaving permanent marks (Not tattoos, like branding)
• Piercing skins with foreign objects (Not piercings you may already have)
• Toilet play
• Watersport

What you can expect from me:

• Someone who will check in on you to see how you're doing
• Someone who's honest, loyal, dependable respectful, understanding, patient, genuine, affectionate, cuddly, loving and kinky
• Someone who loves to communicate
• Someone who is strict but be soft at times too
• Someone who will be there to listen to you and support you

What am I looking for?:

• Someone who wants one Dominant
• Someone who's looking for a long term relationship
• Either long distance or local. For local I'd like someone who's around the tristate area.
• Someone who's an obedient submissive (A brat is always welcomed, I'd put her in her place)
• Someone who is willing to communicate.
• Someone to experience more of life with together
• Someone who likes to grow together, as a relationship is where we both gain experiences and venture out into the scary world together.
• Age 18 to 26
• I'd prefer someone small, petite. Don't let this make you be discouraged though.

If you made it this far and do end up messaging me, tell me about yourself.
Tell me the secret word: Apple

Hey everyone,
So I have for years written off Indian food. Over time I have discovered I hate curry taste and I hate samosas (more accurately, whatever it is that make samosas taste like samosa) but I am a meal prep freak and decided since Asian is out in total (I have to adhere to a super low sodium intake (around 1,000mg a day and just about everyone Asian either uses soy sauce/coconut aminos, or tastes like steamed bland food) I would give Indian a try again.
I apparently love Tika Masala (could be hotter, I think I will double the chili peppers next time) and this has got me to thinking...what else have I been missing out on?
Here is the challenge. I like spicey food. Thats not an issue for me. I just hate curry (and whatever makes a samosa taste like a samosa). Give me ideas!

It dawned on me today that the reason gastric bypass works is because it physically forces you to eat less, thereby forcing you to lose weight (unless I'm way off). In theory with enough self control, one could eat similarly to how someone who had surgery might (low volume, healthy food) and achieve the same goal, could they not? Looking for a subreddit to help people lose weight specifically in this way.

I love gardening. It's relaxing, gets me outside and moving, it's rewarding to watch things grow from a seed, and I end up with a ton of fabulous produce that I could never find in a store. It's also, in my opinion, my most important prep. I share not just my veggies, but also saved seeds and knowledge with friends and neighbors, in the hopes that they'll be more self sufficient if the need ever arises. I'm pretty pleased with the selection of crops I've got, but I'm always looking for more variety, what do y'all like to grow? Some of my favorites include:
Blue Lake Green Beans (pole)
Hopi Turquoise Corn
Moon and Stars Watermelon
Marta Polka Bell Pepper
Purple Jalapeno
Sungold Cherry Tomato
Indigo Apple Tomato
Enterprise Apple
Goldrush Apple

Hi! I'd like to say this up front. I tend to respond to messages pretty quickly most of the time. I also don't like to spam people with messages if they are busy. If I haven't heard from someone in a while I'll send a message or whatnot but I wont just spam messages and look needy. Conversation is definitely a two way street. Please read on if you'd like to know more about me.
☆ I've been a chef for 14 years now. I specialize in thai food and Italian and I'm pretty good at baking cookies, muffins, cakes, and brownies. I also make a killer peanut butter frosting. ♤ I spend some of my free time gaming. I have a ps4, ps5, and two switches. I am currently loving Sonic Frontiers. I also have Mario Kart/Party on my switch and could use people to play with when I get online again. ♡ I love reading. Both books and comics. My favorite author is Clive Barker and his favorite book of mine is Mister B. Gone. On the comics side I like more Marvel then DC but I prefer Topcow over all. If you dont know what Topcow is let me introduce you? ◇ besides the activity I get out of being a chef I also like to take long walks while I listen to music. I swim when the pool isnt full to the brim, I enjoy hikes when I'm not to tired to take them. ♧ I love horror. Be it comics, movies, or novels horror is my jam. Hellraiser is one of my favorite movies of all time. I love Freddy, Jason, Chucky, and all the other slashers as well. □ I'm a big music fan. I love everything except for country. If you want to get a feel for a some of musical taste check out these links and let me know what you think. https://youtu.be/lTwHN5VKFF4 https://youtu.be/LBzQwHJnNPI https://youtu.be/u0b5Xc3v99g https://youtu.be/gxyDcHn0efo https://youtu.be/bkpHUPUM6jQ ○ It's me: https://imgur.com/a/hTkGhCb ■ I enjoy sharing selfies and things with people I talk to and while I do like to see who I'm talking to there is no pressure from me to share anything if you don't feel like it.
If any of that stuff catches your interest and you feel like chatting me up, send a message or a chat. I prefer the chat option but I dont mind either. I hope to hear from you and have a lovely day

Hi all,
I'm not sure if this is the appropriate place. Anyways, we're a small team and therefore have overlapping files. I joined this team recently and it's been a couple of months. When I joined, my manager immediately warned me about Coworker A and how you need to have a specific communication style with them and that they generally talk a lot (which impacts our meetings with time constraints as we always go over). My manager also has difficulties managing A generally.
Weeks pass, and A and I are working together on something. A does a lot of really rude things while we are working on something, such as:

• literally berating me for 4 minutes (I timed it) because I used the wrong template title slide
  • I always try to re-orient them by saying that we can focus on stylization later and we need to focus on what is in the content first.
• asking me why I'm leaving 30 minutes earlier in the work day
• commenting that the food I ordered is disgusting
• berating me for not having fleshed out slides (A had the wrong deck open), etc etc.

I spoke with my manager about A's recent behaviour and they are shocked. They mentioned that A has never had problems like this before and no one has said anything. They said that A is having a stressful time in their life. I held firm and said that I will continue to document these behaviours because I do not tolerate rudeness. It really has been hurting my confidence in my work. A has a permanent position and has been in the unit for a very long time, so obviously there is someone being favoured. We're both the same level/title. I'm not sure what to do y'all.

How many of you have heard this bullshit line over the years? I swear nothing stabs through the heart quicker than your family members shoving this in your face. I'm not ASKING for anybody to 'support' my decisions or even 'approve'. That being said, anything that follows 'I Love You' with a 'but' negates the first part. I will die on this hill.

So this morning around 8am I saw something weird outside my window near my dads car tire and I went to check what it was, and it was a fledging crow. I was surprised and I picked it up to check if it was injured, and then it cawed and I got surrounded by an angry mob of cows (as I should lol), and that was very sweet and I wasn’t worried about the little guy at all since the crows cared for him, so I just left him there. So then around 9pm my brother saw that the fledging crow was being attacked by a cat and then my brother chased the cat away. And then my dad called an ornithologist he knew to see what to do, and the ornithologist told us that leaving the fledging cow outside for the night would be a death sentence and so my dad really wanted to take the fledging crow inside. I fed the little guy some oatmeal mixed with egg whites and water, and two larva my dad found, he was a little shy at first but then he ate everything with pretty much no hesitation (idk if I should’ve done this, it just didn’t look like he was being fed by the other crows from what I’ve seen). And so now I’ve kidnapped him and I want to put him back where I found him in the morning but my mom and dad are against it, and my dad says If I’m gonna put him outside again it should at least be in a box. So yeah, the little guy is in my room right now, he’s not in a box btw - I’ve made him his own little corner near the balcony.
Me and my dad plan on bringing him to a avian veterinarian tomorrow (he probably fell down from a pine tree and I’m pretty sure his right leg is broken), but idk if we should. From what I’ve read online you shouldn’t interfere with fledging crows. I’m very conflicted, I plan on leaving him where I found him in the morning, but should I leave him there in the future for the night too? I’m honestly super confused, should he just stay there (where I found him) and rely on the other crows for food (Cause I don’t want him to imprint on me or become dependent on me or anything, I just want him to be a normal free crow) ? should I leave him outside during the night or bring him inside? Should I bring him to the vet to get his leg checked or should I just let Mother Nature do her work? What do I do if he gets attacked by a cat again (ik death is normal but he’s a very friendly little guy and I just feel kinda bad for not protecting him from getting attacked by a cat)? When I’m gonna put him outside tomorrow should I put him in a box like my dad said to protect him from the cat (although I don’t really think the box will protect him much)? I’m not experienced with crows except for feeding the 6 crows that hangout in my backyard and idk what to do, please help!! :(

My handsome boy Scoot, is a 9 week border collie. I got him when he was 6 weeks, which I have learned is pretty young but I took a week off work to bond with him and since then he goes to a daycare everyday while I’m at work.
After I pick him up from daycare, put him in a crate in the car on the ride home. Take him outside immediately for potty. (He pretty much stays in that pen 99% of the time he’s in the house. This week, I’ve started letting him explore the living room a bit).
My issue is, he’s been acting very scared with me after I disciplined him for being too mouthy and peeing in the apartment (time out and I raised my voice and clapped my hands loud). Often times when I open his crate, he refuses to come out and his body language shows he doesn’t want me. Once I tried to bring him out and he lunged like he would bite me.
But after 10-15 seconds he comes to me to play or for me to pet him. And licks me constantly. He also plays with me very well(or so I think). He lays on my lap, always wants me to scratch his belly.
I just don’t understand and feel lost on if he’s scared of me or something. Any thoughts of what the issue might be?
I do a bit of mental training with him from commands to food puzzles. Also physical training like walks(he pulls a lot and tries to eat everything so i sometimes do a little 3-5 minute running which he enjoys but I know his bones are still growing so I’ve tapered that down). He also gets a lot of sleep!
Anything else I could do better or do less of?
Thank you.

Hope anyone can help ^^
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Modlist:

• harmony
• Core
• royalty
• biotech
• hugslib
• commonsense
• pickupandhaul
• miscellaneous.training
• filthvanisheswithrainandtime
• bionicicons
• blueprints
• cleanpathfinding
• doormat.
• replacestuff
• rtfuse
• smarterconstruction
• rtsolarflareshield
• qualitybuilder
• walllight
• achtung
• rimfridge
• simplesidearms
• stabilize
• centralizedclimatecontrol
• mapreroll
• edb.preparecarefully
• movablebiotech
• runandgun
• rimatomics
• rimefeller
• defensivepositions
• uarry
• owlscolonistbar
• performanceoptimizer
• rocketman

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Okay... I'm about a third of the way into The Shadow of the Torturer, and I'm trying to figure out the order I should read the Urth books.
Without spoiling me... is this a good list? Am I missing anything? Is everything in order? Should anything be added or removed?

Title	Year	Series	Found in
The Shadow of the Torturer	1980	The Book of the New Sun
The Claw of the Conciliator	1980	The Book of the New Sun
The Sword of the Lictor	1981	The Book of the New Sun
The Citadel of the Autarch	1982	The Book of the New Sun
"The God and His Man"	1980	Brown Book story	Endangered Species
"The Boy Who Hooked the Sun"	1985	Brown Book story	Starwater Strains
"Empires of Foliage and Flower"	1987	Brown Book story	Starwater Strains
"The Old Woman Whose Rolling Pin is the Sun"	1991	Brown Book story?	Innocents Aboard
"From the Cradle"	2002	Brown Book story	Starwater Strains
"The Cat"	1983		Endangered Species
"The Map"	1984		Endangered Species
The Castle of the Otter	1982	Non-fiction	Castle of Days
The Urth of the New Sun	1987
Nightside of the Long Sun	1993	The Book of the Long Sun
Lake of the Long Sun	1993	The Book of the Long Sun
Calde of the Long Sun	1994	The Book of the Long Sun
Exodus from the Long Sun	1996	The Book of the Long Sun
"The Night Chough"	1998		Innocents Aboard
On Blue's Waters	1999	The Book of the Short Sun
In Green's Jungles	2000	The Book of the Short Sun
Return to the Whorl	2001	The Book of the Short Sun

Hi,
I am not sure I have an arrythmia, I am a 19 years old male, I exercise a lot, eat healthy, in good shape, etc. However, my dad has had ventricular tachychardia since he was young, so it runs in the family; and I have tried two ADHD medications so far: Vyvanse/Elvanse which at only 30 mgs it gave me palpitations, chest discomfort and hyper tension, and Strattera (Atomoxetine) which at 40 mg within 3 days I started experiencing a feeling of my heart being squeezed, but pulse and BP stayed in normal range.
I have done ECGs after both treatments and nothing came out of it other than a few PVCs. However, a week or two after Strattera I started experiencing some chest discomfort and occasionally my heart would randomly start to race or feel as if it’s fluttering. Went to hospital to get it checked out and all came fine. It went away completely after a while but I recently started occasionally getting palpitations again throughout the day. I drink maybe 1-3 coffees a day usually with food.
I have an appointment booked for July for a 24 Holter monitor, but I am very scared about having an arrythmia or some heart problem and not being able to take any ADHD medication because I really need it. Any suggestions?

I have long delayed the purchase of any maximal insulation cooler... primarily because of the ridiculous price point, but almost equally were the dubious claims of ice retention for days and days without having to refresh.
Well, about a month ago, I was prepping for an ultra distance bike race and got an email from REI for a 20% off coupon that, combined with my member credit, took the price of a Tundra down to about half of MSRP and that was a price I could stomach to see if the reality lived up to the hype.
TL;DR... it doesn't.
I got the cooler a full week before departure, got all my stuff ready to pack for the road trip from N.C. to Kansas, and made certain to fill the cooler completely with ice about 2 days before we left... I mean all the way until I had to clear some for the lid to close and latch. I let that ice sit for two days before deciding to load the cooler for the trip with my sodas, beers, apples, etc... Upon opening the cooler; it was already half melted after just sitting in a 70 degree house... not exactly a resounding mark in its favor but I had a trip to pack for and so loaded it up back to full with all the food, drink, and topped it off with ice once more.
The drive took about 23 hours where the cooler never left the back hatch of the SUV, was never opened, and wasn't exposed to the sun. By the time we arrived in Kansas to unpack the car, there was zero ice left and everything was floating in cold water... UGH!
Go find an ice dispensing station, shell out another few bucks to refill the cooler on Wednesday, place all the stuff back in it and left it again until the race started on Saturday. Pre-race check on Friday night to stuff my water bottles in the cooler and it's half melted again... WTF?! I shoved all the water bottles I could fit in there, drained off some of the water so it wouldn't saturate my dry food that I wanted to stay chilled and, you guessed it; bought more ice to top it off.
Back in the hatch it went and, throughout all of my race day, every time I would open the cooler to grab a bottle of water, the ice was depleting even faster.
We spent another 5 days after the race on a road trip through TX, then back to NC and had to refill the cooler with ice two more times to keep everything cold.
I am beyond frustrated with this purchase and would really like to know if I got a defective cooler that's missing all its insulation (hopefully not considering its weight empty), or if they changed the type of insulation and they don't retain ice as well??? What say the collective? I'm prepared to return it and find another solution, but wanna know if my experience is unusual?